DISCLAIMER. I would like to thank the newspapers that have covered the Walter Masocha story as they have helped raise awareness of abuse happening in some churches which has been going unreported. However, I have not given any national newspapers the right to waiver my anonymity as a victim of Walter Masocha. This is a personal blog and its within my legal rights to express myself here. According to the law my identity is protected in the media. At this stage, I do not wish to be named in any Scottish or English National Papers. Any newspapers that will name me/ or have already done so have done this without my permission or consent. Any newspapers which have published my picture have done so without my consent. I do not wish to have my pictures published in any Scottish or English newspapers. I ask the media , which I greatly respect for their support in this case in covering the story to respect my right to anonymity as a victim and not name me in any newspapers unless I sign a consent form and agree to do so. I am not ready to be named and I want to use the protection I am granted by law at this time. Thank you.

Tuesday, 3 November 2015

Matters Of The Heart: Highway To Success

It was really a phenomenal weekend for me.  I did things I have have never done before, I performed my poem in a place I never dreamed of. I stretched my wings to fly in storms I never thought I could. And the messages of support I am receiving from my followers and loved ones are so heartfelt. The weekend was double blessings in our household as Nino won Best International Artist at PGM Awards 2015. A beautiful end to Black History Month as Nino is the first black Opera singer from Ghana.  I am ever so proud of him! 

 A number of people have asked for a copy of the Re-introduction Of The Chosen Women...and instead of sending people personal copies, here is the poem and I hope it blesses you all. 

Re-introduction Of The Chosen Women By Jean Gasho 

(This is dedicated to all women who have been abused and betrayed by the men who controlled their future.)

She was abused and used, and yearned for justice
She was a fighter and a woman of courage
She wanted to protect what was rightfully hers
She took a risk and claimed her destiny
Betrayed by the men who controlled her future
She fought for her right to believe in a loving God
By her bravery she preserved the Tribe of Judah
Allow me somebody, to reintroduce
A woman of courage who never gave up

(This is dedicated to all women with past mistakes who think their history has power to shape their future)

She was like Rapunzel, waiting for her escape
Up in a tower on city walls of Jericho, she sold her body
She was a strong willed woman, who believed her redemption was nigh
It only took one day, the day she had been waiting for
Two Hebrew spies touched her heart
And she professed her faith in an unseen God
She moved the heart of God,
So much she is a hero of faith in Hebrews 11
Allow me somebody, to reintroduce
A woman of great faith

(This is dedicated to all women who give up everything to follow their faith, expecting nothing in return)

She was a woman of Moab, a foreigner
She gave up her home, her family, her future
To love a woman who had given her a husband
Your people shall be my people, your God my God
Her worth was far above rubies
Better to her mother in law than 10 sons
Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing
But a woman who fears the Lord she shall be praised
She gave up everything expecting nothing
And God honoured her
Allow me somebody, to reintroduce
A woman of virtue

(This is dedicated to all women who have made that one mistake that will mar their reputation for the rest of their lives)

She made a mistake that cost her reputation
She was an adulteress, and she deserved to be stoned to death
A woman who was never meant to wear royal robes
But her beauty stirred the passion of a King
Her pain moved the heart of God
She became the beloved wife of the King
The mother of the wisest man who ever lived
Her son honoured her and gave her a throne
Allow me somebody to reintroduce
A woman of unmerited grace

(This is dedicated to all women who have dreams that seems impossible, to achieve ,who are waiting for that special moment when the impossible will became a reality)

She was a young woman who yearned for the living God
Her soul magnified the Lord
And she rejoiced in God her Saviour
She watched and waited for the Messiah
Little did she know the prophet Isaiah had spoken about her
Unafraid to bear the stigma of pregnancy outside of wedlock
She boldly trusted in what God had chosen for her
All eternity had been waiting for this one moment
And God chose her
Allow me somebody to reintroduce
A woman after God’s own heart

These are five ordinary woman chosen by God
The only women to be mentioned in Mathew’s genealogy of Christ
Each woman is an object lesson about the working of Devine Grace
Five unlikely women who changed eternity
Allow me somebody to reintroduce
Tamar, Rahab, Ruth, Bathsheba, Mary
The five women in the lineage of Grace

In Other News 

Meanwhile these were recent celebrations in Agape For All Nations Ministries International all in line with the Halloween theme. 

Tuesday, 27 October 2015

From A Stammerer To A Spoken Word Artist...And Thanks To Walter Masocha

When I was a child I developed a stammer that was so bad I struggled to say a single sentence. I could not speak openly well into my adulthood, and I remember as a mental health nurse struggling to make and take phone calls at work because I was scared I would make a total fool of myself on the phone. Poetry and writing was always my outlet of expressing myself, but never once did I think I was ever capable of speaking to an audience never mind performing spoken word. 

One thing I know is all things work together for good to those who love God because as twisted and sick as it sounds the very first poem I ever performed to an audience was about Walter Masocha. After the performance, Walter Masocha operating under his "prophetic" jacket as he called it said, "Jean this is only the beginning, you are going to soar higher than an eagle". He also "prophesied" and said that the whole world was going to know Agape because of Jean, and they will be coming from the four corners of the earth to watch me perform". I can accurately confirm that these are the only 2 accurate "prophecies" of the sex offender to date. Everything else he ever said or prophesied turned out to be the exact opposite. Not long ago I wrote that Agape Cult was using my name on an alter as a sacrifice, the bible does say God makes our enemies bless us, and every curse turns out into a blessing.

I never thought I would say this, but just as Jamelia penned the song Thank You to the man who abused her and used her, because it turned her into the strong woman she is. Today on my blog, where I get real and be myself, I would like to take this opportunity and say Thank You Walter Masocha. Thank you for all the time I spent working for you tirelessly in Agape, Thank you for all the poems and dramas you made me write for you. Thank you for the fire you made walk through. Here I stand today, having come out of the fire purified as gold. Yes you were right Walter, I am soaring higher than an eagle. I now go around the country performing poetry, not only at concerts or events, but at universities too. My God has made everything beautiful in its time...

Its Black History Month and I had a wonderful time performing at Bournemouth University last week at their Black History Month Event. l met wonderful young people who are so ready to impact the world. 

In Other News 

This weekend I will be performing in London, my Black History Month Poem, The Lost Black Queen. I am also very excited for Nino who is receiving an award for Best International Artist at the Praise Tex Gospel Music Awards. I am ever so proud of him.

In Other Other News 

I have had some people express concern on my Facebook wall that I should not call Walter Masocha a pedophile or sex offender because apparently its calling him "names". I believe calling someone names is calling someone something they are not. Titles were always very important to Walter Masocha, so much he used to train people on how to address him according to his numerous self given tittles. God also took titles very seriously hence David the Shepherd, Joseph the Carpenter, Rahab the Harlot, Mary the Mother of Jesus. Titles described a person, their role and their purpose. I'm sorry to say Walter Masocha's official title as it stands is SEX OFFENDER. I have been very kind to this monster because the media including BBC describe him as pervert and sex pest. As long as he lives, these are now the titles associated with Walter Masocha, no longer the Apostle, the Archbishop, Man Of God, Prophet, Most Reverend bla bla bla. No, the official titles for Walter Masocha as it stands are pedophile, sex offender, pervert and sex pest. I have no control on what the world calls him, and as a public person and journalist I have no choice but to address him by his official titles, sorry to those offended but is indeed Walter Masocha the sex offender.  

Watch my performance here at Nino's Concert

Watch my performance at Bournemouth University

Thursday, 15 October 2015

The Sound Of AN Untouched Drum

Ok so my journey with Nino began exactly last year around this time. I had just given birth to Fadzai. I was grieving my ex husband, and praying that one day he would come back to me and his children and leave the Sex Offender Walter Masocha Cult. I even wrote him an email, which he gave to his Dad Walter Masocha to use as his evidence during the trial, I know, pathetic and almost unbelievable, but hey thats the power of a cult I suppose. Anyway, I was at home one afternoon, my dear friend Linda next to me nursing new born Fadzai, and my inbox flashed, It was a message from Pauline Long, "Do you want to come to the BEFFTA's. It would be good for you to network, let me know". 

I read the message out loud to my friend, ummm I had just literally given birth, my baby was just a few days old,  I was still feeling rather fat and ugly, didn't feel like dressing up and attending an award show, but something inside me gushed with excitement. I wanted to go. 

"But what about Fadzi?" My friend asked...

"Ummm I will go with her...she goes everywhere with me...she's my baby"

The very next day my health visitor confirmed it by encouraging me to go to the BEFFTA's. She was a beautiful spirited woman from Ghana, who had been reading my blog and could not believe I was under her care. "Go to the BEFFTAS", she said, "You are a beautiful young talented woman, forget your ex husband, hes under a spell of his pastor. He doesn't deserve, you, you will meet one person at the BEFFTAs who will change your life"...my health visitor told me, very confident at her word,  she is one of the most powerful women in my life I have ever met, thanks to Fadzi. Well when she prophesied and said I would meet someone at BEFFTA who would change my life, I thought she meant a business person, maybe I would network with some business people and an opportunity would arise I thought. Love was most definitely the last thing on my mind...For networking and for just letting my hair down, I decided to attend the BEFFTAs.

So the day arrived, got my hair done, got my nails done, I chose not to wear any make up at all, I just chose to look just the way I am, plain. I took my baby Fadzi with me, and my friend Linda came with me helping me nurse the baby. We got there like an hour late, but as we walked in, there was a man standing on stage, about to perform and open the show. We were looking for seats when suddenly he began to sing. I just froze at the sound of his voice. It was without a doubt one of the most captivating sounds I had ever heard, his voice demanded my attention. I mean my uttermost attention. I stopped. It was as though time had paused. It was something I had never heard, like the sound of an untouched drum...I had never heard a black man sing opera before. In fact I had always found opera music rather English and irrelevant to the black man. But that was the moment my mind changed about opera music. No piece of music had ever touched my soul like that before. Not even gospel or Christian music. My eyes welled up, I had goosebumps, I felt so emotional and was taken to another realm...even though he wasn't singing English, it was a language I didn't understand, but I felt like I could understand every word. I felt like he was singing to me, just for me to heal my broken heart...It was the sound of an untouched drum. My heart melted...

The day I met Nino

He finished singing, the audience was equally blown away, actually not equally as me, but they were mesmerized by his powerful voice. I realized I had been standing the entire performance. I wiped my tears and found somewhere to sit, my life was definately never going to be the same again. The rest of the night at BEFFTAs was just awesome, as I met amazing people and Fadzi stole the show with her captivating new born beauty and aura, strangers came upto her and prophesied that she would change the world one day... but nothing was as awesome as hearing Nino sing, because he had touched my very soul.  To cut the long story short, the next few days after BEFFTAs Nino sent me his version of Conte Patiro Time To Say Goodbye. I played the song everyday in my house for 7 days even the children were singing the words. The song healed me, it delivered me from my ex husband. The man who had sang so powerfully to my heart so powerfully on stage was the man who had healed my broken heart, taught me to say goodbye to my ex husband, goodbye to my old life, and he introduced me to a new life of love and laughter
One life lesson Nino has taught me is to laugh.

Nino is quiet and very soft spoken when he is in public, but behind closed doors hes the funniest person you can hang out with. I used to hear women say I want a man who makes me laugh, and I used to find that statement so rather ridiculous, because I never used to laugh, and didn't know the value of laughter in life. Today I consider laughter a gift from God, and Nino taught me to just laugh. He makes me laugh. I laugh so hard my ribs hurt. God knows I needed that after a hell of a life I had with the Musuka family, I didn't even know how to laugh anymore. 
 There is a touching griping story behind Nino's stick...

This weekend Nino, who can sing in 7 different languages, will be launching his first concert, An Untouched Drum. I am so honored to be part of it. It is the sound of an Untouched Drum...

Conte Patiro, Time To Say Goodbye (Untouched Drum Promo)

In Other News 

Sex Odfender Walter Masocha was mentioned on BBC live radio in relation to his horrendous crimes/ sex abuse convictions and the link of Agape For All Nations Church to the death of Scott Chiriseri. I was encouraged that the BBC acknowledged that there is a loophole in the law regarding black Pentecostal churches and approached the Government on the rising epidermic. As a woman who was accused of bewitching the Agape Church I feel encouraged on this journey I am on to bring religious abuse to the Parliament of the UK. I was encouraged Walter Masocha was mentioned as a pedophile on one of the most listened to radio stations in the United Kingdom BBC Radio 5 Live Investigates...Not as a man of God, but what he is a pedophile...

Friday, 25 September 2015

Against Walter Masocha Campaign

Altar: A table or flat topped block used as the focus for a religious ritual, especially for making sacrifices or offerings to a deity (oxford dictionary meaning)

Agape Altar and Sacrifices

It has come to my urgent attention that Agape For All Nations Church founded by sex offender Walter Masocha has built an altar in Nottingham where they plan to build their church or something of that effect where they plan to worship their god. I personally don't have a problem with cults building their altars and making sacrifices to their gods for it is a free world, let them be,  but I do have a problem when a cult decides to build an altar and put my name "Jean Gasho" on it and make sacrifices to their god using my name, like really! They pray to "the god of Walter Masocha" as they call him and on the altar is my name and the names of the three other victims who are in the upcoming Walter Masocha trial, my name being on the top. Cult members (the remaining 20 people or so) as evidently seen on their website are being told to write their problems and sacrifice them on the altar where my name is written, and prayers are being offered on this alter and my name being used as a sacrifice.
Sketch I did of the current situation in the cult...Members bringing problems/sacrifices to the altar 

Agape cult I will not take this lightly, I know you read this blog on a daily basis. I have never asked you of anything before but please do remove my name from your satanic altar with immediate effect. Do not offer any prayers to your gods using my beautiful name. I will not be used as a sacrifice by you. I am a woman who is very much loved by God. I was set apart when I was still in my mother's womb. Jean is a Hebrew name which means "gift from God", Fadzai my middle name means "to give joy" Gasho my surname means "reeds used to tie". This is not just a name, it is purpose and destiny. For you to take this name and write it on your altar where you make sacrifices to your gods is totally unacceptable and something you may want to think twice of before you do.  If you have any item of mine you are using on your altar to sacrifice just stop. Any cult member who is going to make sacrifices on this altar and writing down their problems on a piece of paper to my name, think before you act. Yes touch not...I said touch NOT!

What you do in your secret chambers I write here on the roof top for the world to see. Agape Cult/Church I repeat do not use my name on your altar. You come to me with altars and sacrifices, please I am just a woman, I come to you with the word of God. How can you honestly write your problems down using my name, and place them on an altar? Are you people crazy or what? You 20 cult members remaining in Agape, yes there is just about a handful of you as portrayed by the pictures you posted, when I saw the pictures the Lord reminded me that I have lived to see the goodness of God in the land of the living, for yes only 20 remain. Aha aha. That said, I urge you 20 members to leave my name out of your rituals and sacrifices.  Here are the following scriptures I want to outline to you as I openly rebuke your rituals against me. Thank you.

"However, the LORD your God would not listen to Balaam but turned the curse into a blessing for you, because the LORD your God loves you". Deuteronomy 23:5

 "No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord", Isiah 54:17

"Do not touch my anointed ones; do my prophets no harm" Psalm 105:15

Despite Agape rituals and sacrifices using my name, my cup continues to overflow with goodness and mercy 

Agaisnt Walter Masocha Campaign

Enough about rituals and sacrifices, JAW charity was always about raising awareness on religious sexual abuse in the United Kingdom to the general population of Britain who are oblivious to this type of abuse mainly affecting the black immigrants of UK. Last week I launched Just Jean ‬Campaign, which is also my ministry, going around the country raising awareness about multiple sex offender Walter Masocha and his crimes against humanity and the sentence he got, calling for a judicial review in the sentencing of multiple sex offenders in the UK. Last weekend I was speaking in Milton Keynes and getting signatures from the public on my campaign artwork. The work begins, taking #JAW to the streets, looking forward to this campaign, next weekend my team and l will be in‪ Northamptom‬.

The Against Walter Masocha Campaigns begins...

To be honest, I am very excited about this campaign because like Elsa in Frozen the crowds never bothered me anyway, its time to let it all go and take JAW to the British streets and let the world know about a man who is set to change the law on UK pedophiles 

In Other News

Its sad that Agape are still using my brand I started and my ideas to run their cult,  APA which stands for Agape Performing Arts, which I founded in 2012: you would think they would start their own ideas but no, they stick with mine. That said they can steal my ideas but they can not steal my gifts. I will be doing a spoken word performance at my beloved's upcoming concert next month. Nino's concert will be phenomenal and am so looking forward to be a supporting act on this very special event. Please do come and support this special event and hear the beginning of an OP_Era, the dawn of a new Era. Nino has such an anointed opera voice and every time he sings I get goosebumps, even when he just sings for me. This untouched drum has to be heard...

Thursday, 17 September 2015

Matters Of The Heart - In My Little Kitchen

Jean's Kitchen Prayer

You took away my old kitchen 
As I cried tears of blood
But it was too cold and rusty 
No matter how I tried to warm it 
The fire would always die 

But when I thought I could never cook again
You gave me a new little kitchen 
Filled with hearts, flowers and plants
Where the fire never burns out
The love never runs dry 

Oh bless my little kitchen Lord 
Let it be a monument of grace 
When I do my work 
Wash pots and pans and cook 
Write blogs, design clothes and draw
Bless the fruits of my hands 

Let my recipes be filled with dreams 
Let the value of my dreams shine 
It may be a humble kitchen 
But in it history is made 
I am home in my kitchen 
Where I have learnt to love again 

Yep, that just about sums it up, 18 months ago I was homeless after Walter Masocha and my ex husband evicted me from my house. God was good to me and my children and He gave us a new home where we started afresh, even the furniture. God indeed took away the old house, the kitchen was tiny, cold and uninviting, I never treasured it or spent time in it. It was rather a reflection of my heart, how sad and unhappy I was in the marriage, though I thought I was happy, because I didn't know any better. 

Today in this kitchen I laugh a lot. Some of the rules in our house are -  love life, live long and laugh out loud, a lot... I had never laughed in my life the way I laugh today, Nino makes me cry with laughter. Dreams are achieved in my kitchen, because home is where the heart is. This kitchen is spacious, its airy and its colorful, oozing green and orange, my favorite colors. My whole personality is in this kitchen. Its a breath of fresh air, and I always feel encouraged when I am with my children at home. 

I don't mean this in a rude way but the truth of the matter is ALL Agape members (that I knew personally) sadly live in houses that are run down. One member lived in a house where you could see the toilet through the kitchen roof, yet she was giving her hard earned live in money to Walter Masocha. Another family had a council house kitchen that had no cupboards yet they were fighting to buy Walter Masocha Egyptian cotton sheets and flight tickets. Its a sad reality but I am just grateful that I have a kitchen full of food and love, something that you may not find in an Agaped child kitchen..,

 It takes hands to build a house but it takes hearts to build a home

Nino and Nakai doing their thing....its always in the kitchen

My boys love to draw, even when the shopping is still on the floor!

Orange and green...

I have a thing for wooden hearts, this handmade heart wooden mirror is the focal point of my kitchen 

I love my traditional whistling kettle...I have said goodbye to electric jugs lol 

Home is where the heart is...

My plant on the corner is doing really well...

Oops...the old house...the one I lost...guess the coldness speaks for itself 

Hope you enjoy my home made video (literally)

In Other News

I feel so honored to have designed a gown for one of the models of Miss Pride Of Africa 2015. Antonia is a beautiful amazing woman with a pure heart. She is one strong woman with a heart for people. I cant wait to see her on the runway wearing Just Jean gown and I believe this Pride Of Africa Crown belongs to her as she represents Gambia...Go Antonia Go!

In Other Other News 

Agape fraudster Faith Domingo Nechironga 

It came as no surprise that AGAPE Church member and spiritual daughter of sex offender Walter Masocha has been found guilty of running a holiday and passport application pyramid scheme that has alledgedly fleeced over £ 14000 and £5400 respectively from unsuspecting victims within 8 weeks. Read full story here . Faith Nechironga continues to deny the allegations and shows no remorse over the pain and loss she caused her unsuspecting victims, even though none of them have received their money back. Faith Nechironga is responsible for booking Walter Masocha's luxury holidays and collecting money from poor church members to sponsor Walter Masocha's holidays. Faith who had been so excited about being nominated for Zimbabwe International Women Awards Business Woman Of The Year for running a travel Agency has now been stripped off from the category. I guess there is Justice at the end of the tunnel. 

Thursday, 10 September 2015

If I Had Been A White Woman In Modern Britain Today...

The day that Walter Masocha, a convicted sex offender walked free from Falkirk Sheriff Court, much to the shock of the world, I knew that the color of my skin and that of the 15 year old girl he sexually abused had had a lot to do with Sheriff Kenneth McGowan's decision to let Walter Masocha escape jail with 250 hours community service.

If only I had been a white woman, justice would have prevailed 

If only the 15 year old girl groped by Walter Masocha had been a white girl, I believe the Sherrif would not have had mercy on Masocha, because race matters. Maxwell Nyakutya, an Agape church leader and Masocha's closest friend merely stroked another 15 year old girl's leg on a bus, and Sherrif Hendry had no sympathy or mercy for him, considering a custodial sentence for the sex offender, giving him 2 years probation and putting him on the sex offender register for 5 years, a far contrast to the one year on the sex offender register that was given to Masocha for more multiple sex offences, including abusing a 15 year old girl also. Two 15 year old girls, one touched on the thigh in a bus, the other groped inside her underwear in a closed environment by her preacher after being groomed, but the former 15 year old girl got justice and the latterr didn't. Why, because one was white and the other was black. The 15 year old who didn't get justice had to give evidence in court, she had to be cross examined, she missed school, only for her sex offender to walk free from court. Why, because she wasn't white enough. If only she had been white, maybe with red hair and freckles, then that would have made all the difference, she would have lived to see justice in modern Britain. She would not have wavered her anonymity, but as a victim of sexual assault, she would have been protected for the rest of her life. If only she had been a white 15 year old girl, even the public would have been outraged by the sentence her convicted molester was given. 

Even me, a 33 year old mother of 4, left homeless and assaulted by the Bishop with my husband's permission, if only my skin shade had been different, then I would not have gone through a week of grueling cross examination , taking my children off school for my abuser to get community service. I would not have spent hours giving evidence in court, one of the most difficult things for a victim of sex abuse to go through, only for my abuser to be on the sex offender register for a year. Even a man who touches a girl on a bus gets 5 years on the sex offender register. If I had been a white woman in modern Britain today, then Sherrif McGowan would not have told sex pervert Walter Masocha that hes not going to jail because he had already suffered a spectacular fall from grace, because sex offenders are meant to fall spectacularly from grace, especially those respected by the community and who take a position of leadership and trust. There is no other way for sex offenders to fall from grace, public humiliation is inevitable in 99.9% of the cases and the fall from grace will be nothing but spectacular. That is no reason for the sentence to be lenient, because it is the victim who matters not the offender. Max Clifford, Rolf Harris and even dead Jimmy Saville all suffered spectacular falls from grace before the sentences were passed. But that never deterred from the severity of the sentencing intended for the crime committed.

Max Clifford was even given a tougher jail sentence by Judge Anthony Leonard, double the time he was supposed to serve because he showed no remorse over the white women and girls he had assaulted, Judge Anthony Leonard didn't care that Max Clifford had once hosted a charity dinner to raise money for a boy with cancer. The judge didn't consider that Max Clifford had been involved in so many charities in Britain, what mattered was the way he had abused his position of power and influence to abuse vulnerable women and girls, and for that he sent him to prison for 8 years. Why, because white women he had abused mattered. What about Rolf Harris. Mr Justice Sweeny sentenced him to 5 years and 9 months in Prison because the entertainer had shown no remorse for a string of indecent assaults. It didn't matter that Rolf Harris had even painted a picture of the Queen once, and at one time he was loved and adored by the British public, all that didn't matter, it was about the victims he violated and took advantage of.

Sherrif McGowan said sex offender Walter Masocha had done some charity work and was a man of good character. I believe every pedophile in the world is of good moral standing to some degree, and good character which allows them to be sex perverts for years without suspicion. Most of them are very charming and "nice people". That's the whole idea. They are not exactly going to walk around with a label on the fore head that screams "I will be molesting a 15 year old girl today in my office". Of course not, they will be very respectable and wear tailor made suits, I never thought I would see the day in modern Britain, where a convicted pedophile escapes jail because he was "respected by his church members". It sure saved Walter Masocha to pretend to be a good man, even though he has raped women, abused girls, groped women. Why because black girls and women just don't matter enough for them to see justice on the men who cruelly violated them.

About the charity work, may I just correct Sir Sherrif McGowan that Walter Masocha has never done any sort of charity work all his life in any shape or form. He doesn't even know the meaning of the words "helping" or "charity". Max Clifford had done significant charity work in the world, making a difference in the world, but hes in jail today for sexual assault. The real charity work did not save him from receiving the sentence he deserved.  Rolf Harris did proper charity work too okay, like painting a card for children in need charity organisation, supporting Princes Trust etc, but his backside is in jail today, why, because the white girls he abused matter. As for Walter Masocha he has never donated a penny to anyone in his life, never saved a soul.  You could be dying of cancer and Walter Masocha would literally ask you to bless him with the little you have so that God will heal you, He has a charity alright, but he uses it to abuse and manipulate the weak, and the vulnerable. The ethic minorities, single mothers, the mentally weak, the asylum seekers, yes the black spiritual people of modern Britain.  He is the one who is given money by his followers, if that is what charity work is described as in Scotland, then I believe the definition needs to be changed in oxford dictionary.

Reggie Yates set to explore how skin color affects decision making in new BBC documentary

So yes I will say it again boldly, If I was a white woman today, with blonde hair and blue eyes, my convicted abuser would not be roaming the streets today, especially when found guilty of multiple sex offences, and shown no remorse for what he did, never apologized once but continues to be idolized and worshiped by his followers running a registered charity, of course Sheriff Kenneth McGowan would have definitely sentenced him to jail, If I had been a white woman today, then my sex abuser would not be flying first class this weekend to attend an Agape wedding of Ruvimbo and Odingo Matorera where his travel, 5 star accommodation, food and clothing is being paid for by church members so that he can "bless" the wedding as "Daddy" and 'The Prophet' despite being a convicted sex offender.

But still I hope. I believe my work was never in vain and will never be in vain. I may be just a woman. A black woman rather. But I still hope. As Reggie Yates BBC documentary will explore, IS BRITAIN RACIST? Going undercover to explore the nation's modern day prejudices, determining that the country still discriminates against people because of the color of their skin. Well I have lived to experience this reality as a victim of sexual assault and life threatening abuses that almost killed me. But still I dream, that one day no man, preacher or not, prophet or not,  will touch a black girl, or a black woman and get away with it because she was just a black girl. I have a dream, that one day black women will live to see justice in modern Britain, and their convicted sex offenders will not be excused because they had already fallen from grace, or were respected by their followers, or wore expensive suits and ran a registered charity, but will be judged according to the severity of their crimes, not their alter egos. I have a dream, that one day the law will change on the sentencing of religious sex offenders who use their "charities", " good social standing " and "power" to abuse vulnerable women and children. I have a dream, that one day the black woman will matter, as a sexual assault victim, but for now I can only say if only I was a white woman, then I would have seen the man who abused me face a jail sentence. If only...

With my pencil and paper still I hope...

In Other New

What made me survive this abuse was the woman in me. I drew strength from being myself and expressing myself, in writing, fashion, drawing and just being me, Just Jean. My new JUST JEAN Afrocentric T shirts are perfect for autumn. Its time to cover up and get our jeans out of the closet. What I love about the Just Jean t-shirts is they are very versatile, and can be worn with just about anything casual, leggings, maxi shirks, Jeans, pants, casual skirts and/or shorts. My children are very excited about this collection, making me one very proud mummy, its Just Jean...

Saturday, 22 August 2015

Josh Duggar, Trapped In A Cult

On Friday I watched  a very sobering and moving new Chanel 5 documentary called Trapped In A Cult, telling of frightening stories of people affected by cults. One woman's story was almost identical to mine. The documentary made me realize that at times as human beings, we can help create our own cults even within the four walls of our own homes. As I was pondering on this whole matter after the documentary I watched, lo and behold one of my once favorite Christian family was making the headlines, but this time it was their son Josh Duggar on CNN. For my readers who don't know who Josh Duggar is, Josh is a Christian Reality TV star, the firstborn son of American Christian couple Michelle and Jim Bob Daggar who have 19 children, and are practically famous for it.  I  first knew about this family about 7 years ago when they were endorsing the film Fireproof, which is one of my favorite films of all time, and my favorite actor Kirk Cameron was also endorsing their show. The Duggar family caught my attention and since then I became a huge fan. An extraordinary family it is, none of the 19 children are adopted, all of them were given birth to by one woman, Michelle Daggar. I became fascinated with the family, and their reality show on TLC, 19 Kids and Counting, was always on my sky recorder. I admired how they raised their children, strict christian values. I remember showing my ex husband their website, how they home schooled their children, how they didn't watch TV, strict courtship rules, no kissing before marriage etc etc, I even prayed to God that I wanted to raise my children like that, I remember even watching TV became a no no at some point,  whilst I was praying earnestly that God would open a way for me to homeschool my children. Oh the Duggar family was just a picture of Christian perfection, how parents are supposed to raise a super duper jolly godly family.

Josh Daggar Scandal 

However today, in a diabolic twist of the christian fairy tale that was almost too good to be true, the Duggar's firstborn son Josh is making headlines on CNN, BBC, Daily Mail, the blogsphere and just about anywhere you find breaking news. The headlines are nothing to do with him being a family values advocate that he has been well known for, but rather everything that opposes that. The picture perfect christian family has now fallen from grace in a spectecular way. Walter Masocha kinda fall from grace. Its epic. Josh Duggar has been outed as one of the 32 million people, yes 32 million who were using the cheating website Ashley Madison. For those who dont know Ashely Madison, its a website that is designed soley for the purpose of cheating on your spouse, because apparently, life is too short, you might as well have an affair and have fun. Yeah I know right. But whats more shocking to me is not the website itself or what it stands for, but that it had 32 million married people secretly using its services faithfully, and one of them to be exposed is married father of four Josh Duggar, of all people! He listed his interests on the site as Conventional sex, experimenting with sex toys, one night stands and receiving foreplay among many other fantasies, I'm sure his parents who practically raised him in a box, literally, have cried tears of blood over these revelations, and are probably perplexed as to how their precious godly son even knew about these things, for they were never mentioned in the box. Hmmm Josh has recently issued a statement after the Ashley Madison scandal, and part of it went something like this...

"I have been the biggest hypocrite ever. While espousing faith and family values, I have secretly over the last several years been viewing pornography on the internet and this became a secret addiction and I became unfaithful to my wife

Josh Duggar the devout Christian who campaigned around America for family values and biblical principals, speaking against divorce, infidelity other "sins" has himself been cheating on his wife and literally lying to the whole world, especially to thousands of Christians who looked up to him and saw him as a role model of their faith. And now the non-believers are having a party, because Josh has brought the name of Christ into shame and disrepute. I was listening to Todd Friel last night, and he was saying Josh was not truly born again, hence he committed these shameful sins, so Josh needs salvation. Some Christians are saying he needs church discipline, which could all be true, the guy needs help, and I think at this stage anything, any help will do. I however look at this rather differently, having come out of a "Christian Cult" Agape, I now understand that in life there are strict things people do and attribute them to God or the bible, when in fact they are human traditions , which in reality have nothing to do with God or the bible. I believe Josh Daggar is a victim of a CULT, the perpetrators being his own parents. Their extreme beliefs are big contributing factors to the self disruptive behavior of Josh Duggar. I believe his unusual and strict upbringing played a huge part in the man Josh is today.

Here are some of the rules that Josh Duggar and his siblings were subjected to growing up...despite none of them not being in the bible...

  • no going to the beach because it was a sinful place
  • no any form of dancing because it stimulates sensuality 
  • the girls only wear dresses, no pants
  • no TV
  • no alcohol
  • no romantic novels
  • no kissing, or hugging, or spending time alone before marriage
This young man was raised in isolation, with strict "christian rules" that in reality has nothing to do with the bible or God. One thing I have learnt about cults is they are toxic, one way or the other, it will only take one day, and everything will explode. We are human beings, and God himself created us to live in this world, not in a cupboard in your house. You can not shelter your children from the world and keep them in little bubbles, its cultic and dangarous and abusive. Not one saint in the bible ever attempted to live outside the world, so I don't understand why people do it using the bible. Joseph, a man mightily used by God lived in Egypt, even wore Egyptian clothing, I'm sure Ephriam and Menasah played with other Egyptian boys and if there was television those days Joseph would not have had a hissy fit had his boys watched a bit of Egyptian cartoons. Esther is another God fearing woman who lived in a sinful world, but she was still used by God in Persia. Jesus Christ himself lived a full life mixing with sinful people of this world. If there was television in His day, I really don't think  Jesus would have created a commandment against it.  Christians need to relax and allow themselves to live in the world, and the world includes the beach, its not a sin to go there wearing a bikini, its life. How was Josh supposed to learn about life when he was basically sheltered from it. Had Josh Daggar been allowed to live in the world and be a normal child, I'm sure we would not be watching him on CNN today.

My heart bleeds for the other 18 children who are still trapped in the Duggar Cult. I hope they release their poor children from this cult and allow them to live in the real world and experience life for themselves. Of course we have to be careful what we expose our children to, for the days are evil and wickedness, but we have to remember He giveth more grace. Doing what Michelle and Jim Bob did to me is a lack of faith and trust in God that He is more powerful thän the god of this world, which triggered the extremism. Had they trusted God with their children, they would have even maybe allowed Josh to go to school where he could have been exposed to life and learnt a thing or two from life experiences. School in itself is not evil, though the system is corrupted, but God is still on the throne watching over our children in school.

Having come out of a "Christian Cult" that almost destroyed my life was I not strong enough, I have learnt that the bible is a very powerful book, and anyone can use it to do evil or to do good. Many evil atrocities have been committed using the bible, we can even use the book to create our own monsters whilst running away from the "evil" world. I believe the monster within can be more evil. Josh Daggar is a monster created by his own over zealous extremist parents. I believe Josh needs to break free from the believes he was raised in and read the bible for himself and get to know whom God says He is for himself. The first step to breaking free from mental slavery is knowing is knowing who you are, and I believe right now Josh Daggar hasn't got a clue. Thats why on Ashely Madison he used a picture of another guy a DJ called Mathew McCarthy who has now lost a few gigs because of the scandal and hes considering suing Josh for defamation. Parents please do not trap your children in CULTS. 

In Other News 

Talking about family values and principles. I love animals so much and so does my family, sometimes for me its hard to eat meat...lol. Animals seem to be drawn to me too, Sometimes animals just walk or fly towards me, like this beautiful cow she just came to me, sooo cute. Well they say a dog is a man's best friend. My 11 year old daughter has wanted a puppy for years now, and we are thinking about adding another baby to our ever growing family...after everything she has endured and being such a brave and resilient young damsel, maybe a cute little puppy for her is not such a bad idea...