Friday, 5 September 2014

The Last Blog Post

Dear readers of He Was My Daddy.

I started this blog in a women's refuge on a cold lonely winter night of 2013.  Hurt, confused, emotional and not knowing where to turn to, I did the only thing that I had always known to help me, express myself through writing. I didn't know where it would take me, I was just writing to help myself more than anything. I needed to let all my pain out.

Well, our steps are ordered by the Most High. When I look back this blog was ordered by Him in order to destroy the prophet of Baal and set many captives free who had been tormented by a religious institution designed to kill, steal and destroy the lives of many vulnerable adults in the UK and around the world. I had no idea what the blog would unveil. It went to America, Zimbabwe, Canada, Uganda, Australia, Zambia, South Africa and many other countries. This blog became a journey not only for me, but for many women and men who became a part of it. It made me cry, it made me laugh, it made me angry, it made me smile, it terrified me, it gave me joy.  It made me go through every emotion under the sun. It was a process that led to my healing, letting go off the pain, and being able to finally know and feel that I have truly forgiven.


CNN Hero Muzvare Betty Makoni told me never to shut the blog down. She said its my memoir and a reminder of what God did through this blog. The police used it as part of their investigations, and it will be part of the evidence to be used in the upcoming trial.  My friends asked me not to take the blog down, but rather leave it as a memorial of the power of God.  I have a lot of beautiful memories here, I met so many lovely women of courage. This blog took me places I never thought I would go. It took me to high places and it took it took me to the depths of the pit. Sometimes I regretted ever starting it, sometimes I felt liberated that I did.

The Victim No More Event on 1 March 2013 marked a new beginning for me. A lot of people echoed the same message to me, "you have done your part, now be still and let God finish the race for you".
I knew in my heart what I had to do. The blog had done its part, God had used it, but now He wanted me to move on to the next stage.

I took some time off, I focused on my family, my mother came all the way from Zimbabwe to comfort me. I moved to a new town. I spent time decorating my new house, baking a lot of cakes lol, even enjoying our pet rabbit lol, and just watching the horses and the water view in front of my house.  All that had a healing aspect on me and in the process of time the Most High led me to a beautiful family of believers where I was baptized and got to know the real God in the most amazing way. I am a new creature in Christ.

Its a new beginning for me. I am so grateful for all the people who supported and prayed for me on this blog. Your prayers sailed me through Key Board Warriors lol. You were awesome. But its time to move on. I will no longer post on this blog but will leave it as a memorial for justice.  The Member of Parliament for Milton Keynes recently called me after he read this blog. He encouraged me as I shared with him where the Lord was taking me and my plans for the future. So I know this blog is a memorial for survivors of spiritual and emotional abuse at the hands of Church leaders.


My new website is www.jeangasho.co.uk .

Once again I want to thank everyone who believed me, supported me and said prayers for me. You all helped me in my journey. For the last time I say HE WAS MY DADDY, but not anymore. I am free now, a Victim No More!








And my voice is going to . false promises you see and I had little faith, and boy I never thought she would actually do an event to support me. Me. Jean Gasho. It sounded too good to be true. But hey its really happening, Muzvare Betty is a woman of her word indeed. She is passionate about her work and I could never ask for a better mentor.  


Muzvare Betty Makoni

I have been kinda busy preparing for 1 March, please forgive me for the silence, but I thought my readers the keyboard warriors would like to hear from me. I thank God for the blog secretary Debbie Mackenzie who is now mostly in charge of this blog. She is God sent and I thank God for all her hard work. So back to 1 March, its International Women's Day launch. A day to celebrate women. International women's day has been running since 1911, and each year there is a theme. The theme for 2014 is inspiring change, celebrating social, political and economic achievements of women whilst focusing world attention on areas requiring further change. I feel honored as a woman to play a small part on this special time of the year. If my speaking out about Church abuse saved one little girl or just one woman from going through what I went through in the hands of Pastors and a Church leader, then I feel my purpose was achieved. I want to inspire change. I am going to speak with such a voice on the 1st of March that even a woman in the remotest part of Africa will hear that there is a woman called Jean somewhere in this world who said NO to Church abuse. God will perfect that which He started. This day is not just about me, its for every woman who has suffered in the hands of any so called Man of God. Its time for change! 

Lets talk 1 March Fashion, shall we! 

Okay so I am kinda like a fashion freak. Fashion and style is at the heart of who we are as women. Fashion identifies us with our passions, and I sure wanted to bring this spirit into the 1 March event. When Muzvare Betty asked me what my favourite colour was, I visualised the event. Orange is not just my favorite color, orange is me. It defines me. I don't know why I love this color, but I have always been drawn to it ever since I was a child. Orange is colour of passion, even my living room is orange. I also  happen to wear a lot of orange. Muzvare Betty keeps talking about the venue for 1 March being a place of healing and moving on. Orange is actually one of the primary healing colors. Orange is optimistic. With its enthusiasm for life, the color orange relates to adventure, risk taking, inspiring physical confidence, competition and independence. Those inspired by orange are always on the go. Its a color that aids the assimilation of new ideas and frees the spirit of its limitations, giving us the freedom to be ourselves. What am I saying, for me orange is the ultimate fashion accessory. Just wearing this vibrant bold color is stimulating to me both mentally and physically. I am having my dress tailor made for 1 March, I want my designer to bring out the ultimate orange in me! For that reason the theme colors for this event are orange, brown and black. I hope we will all be rocking our orange swagga on 1 March in Essex. Brown is for the strong woman of color, and black is for black beauty and elegance, but the main color remains vibrant orange. 

 Some ideas on how to rock orange on 1 March...
 Orange always looks radiant on brown skin, here is one of my favorite natural icons Lira at the BET awards in tangerine orange...
 Some simple yet sophisticated orange designs  from Johari Designs
And don't we just love Jennifer Hudson especially in orange...
In Agape I was well known for wearing orange, I guess that was always the fighter in me...

Its International Women's Day, ladies lets wear orange for positive change! Oh and men are very welcome to the event too, they may not wanna wear orange, but black or brown would look good and complement the bright orange! Its an event for empowering women to say no to church abuse but men are also needed as the fear and stigma of spiritual and sexual abuse is instilled in women by men who have no awareness of spiritual related sexual abuse.  Its time for change for both men and women! 

The book signing

Its been pretty amazing. I am an author in my own right at last. I will be officially launching and signing my book Napolia on 1 March. Its taken me this long and for this reason this is my empowerment as a woman at its best. Signing my book on International Womens Day Launch. When you realize the sky is the limit and no man can ever take away the gift that is in you, not even a man of God, then you could not be more empowered as a woman. What God has blessed no man can curse. I launched my official website last week www.jeangasho.com  and  the book is now on Amazon and God is doing amazing things indeed. 

The Interview of the week

So Muzvare Betty Makoni interviewed a number of women in preparation for 1 March and I happened to be one of them. The interview is now available on Nehanda Radio please listen t it and be inspired. I couldn't believe it when I listened to the interview myself, some really mind boggling truths about the severity of church abuse in Agape. 

So dear readers, keyboard warriors, this is how far we have come, I hope to see you all on 1 March, its going to be a day like no other, come and be inspired. My family is also going to be there, and my dearest friends who have stood by me through these trying times will be supporting me. I am Jean, and I am a VICTIM NO MORE, till I see you on 1 March! Be blessed. 



Monday, 3 March 2014

Agape member who wrote a Facebook post wishing me dead falls to her death during Church service in Scotland

Former Archishop Walter Masocha is reported to have instructed single mother Cathy Chigavazira to discharge herself from hospital and and refrain from any medical form of treatment in order to get her healing in Agape. Cathy is reported to have given this shocking testimony herself  exactly a week before her death at a women's conference last week. In a shocking twist the church has learnt that in the meantime the Prophetess of Agape Judith Masocha is in Nigeria at an undisclosed location for unknown reasons to the church.  There is much speculation among former members and Agape members that the Prophetess' mysterious trip to Nigeria may be linked to the recent allegations of evil and satanism in the church and heavy fear has fallen on many people being affected by Agape.

Agape's moto is to reach out to the world with the unconditional love of God with the aim of comforting the hurting and healing the broken hearted.  However on 5 February 2014 committed church goer and Board member Yvonne Gayakaya posted a Facebook post expressing her joy and great pleasure at the pain and torture I have gone through inflicted by Agape. She openly mocked me that I had no husband, money or home anymore and all I do is blog.  It was on that Facebook post that Cathy Chigavazira  posted a very disturbing reply and openly prophesied what seemed to be my death where I would fall down with a heavy thud and how great my fall would be. 

In much sadness and shock I have learnt that yesterday during a church service in Scotland Cathy fell to her death after she had been told by former Archbishop Walter Masocha to discharge herself from hospital and expect her healing in church.  Cathy testified at the Women's Conference last weekend how the police followed her home after she self discharged and persuaded her to go back into hospital for treatment. A determined Cathy testified she told the police that her Daddy Walter Masocha had told her to leave hospital and come to Church.  She said the god of Walter Masocha was healing her.

It got more shocking after Cathy's sudden death as a text message with a cold and unloving tone was passed around to church members which appeared to trivialise Cathy's sudden horrific death and the message said Cathy had been "promoted to glory".

The lack of empathy by Agape to the sudden death of the mother of one was truly the final nail to the coffin to the spirit behind Agape. Cathy was the woman who was behind the Agape merchandise. She was the woman behind the Agape brand. She designed every T-shirt, every overall and all the stationery and products of Agape.  The text message of her death by Agape Officials was something never seen before as there was no sign of mourning or loss. All the text said was Cathy had been promoted to glory.  We know it is biblical and Christian to mourn the death of others. Believers cried when Dorcas died in Acts. Even Jesus wept at the death of Lazarous. Death is never meant to be trivialised especially one so tragic and sudden.  Agape's cold response to Cathy's death has left the world in shock and they have refused to give a statement to the press despite the former Archbishop Walter Masocha being at the centre and others arguing that he's the cause of Cathy Chigavazira's death.  

I personally am deeply shocked and saddened by Cathy's sudden death. I have never heard of a person falling to their death whist about to give a testimony during a church service.   I do not wish death on anyone, even my worst enemies.  The Bible clearly warns us not to wish anyone dead and that we should love our enemies and do good to those who curse us.

I am reminded of Haman and Modecai. The gallows Modecai was meant to be hung on by Haman ended up bring Haman's own death sentence. I personally have received numerous death wishes and worse from Agape church members. But I still do not wish those people to die. I believe its not for us to prophesy the death of another mortal.  

 Much speculation and allegations of repeated behaviour of the former Archbishop Walter Masocha instructing church members to stop taking medication and expect healing from God has now started to surface.  A few weeks ago I received a message from a teenager who said her mother nearly died after falling ill at a church conference in Agape and the former Archbishop prayed and advised against calling an ambulance.  The woman was then later taken to hospital against the Archbishop's advice and was lucky to survive. I find it ironic how Agape is quick to call 999 for an ambulance on so called mental people yet those really needed urgent medical treatment are refused medical care. 

I believe Cathy's death could have been avoided had she not been advised to leave hospital by her Daddy who is meant to have officially resigned from pastoral duties.  May Cathy's soul rest in peace. I personally knew Cathy and I pray her biological family is comforted and get answers from Walter Masocha as to why he told her to discharge herself from hospital. 

Below is the Facebook post by Yvonne Gayakaya commented by Cathy.

Wednesday, 26 February 2014

Its International Women's Day!

And my voice is going to be heard, at last...

So the countdown has finally begun! The day is drawing nigh. Its only a few days to our International Women's Day Victim No More event! Jean is excited okay! A little nervous of course, but I feel empowered and ready for this day. When Muzvare Betty Makoni told me about this day last year in October, I was like no way. I was kinda used to false promises you see and I had little faith, and boy I never thought she would actually do an event to support me. Me. Jean Gasho. It sounded too good to be true. But hey its really happening, Muzvare Betty is a woman of her word indeed. She is passionate about her work and I could never ask for a better mentor.  

Muzvare Betty Makoni

I have been kinda busy preparing for 1 March, please forgive me for the silence, but I thought my readers the keyboard warriors would like to hear from me. I thank God for the blog secretary Debbie Mackenzie who is now mostly in charge of this blog. She is God sent and I thank God for all her hard work. So back to 1 March, its International Women's Day launch. A day to celebrate women. International women's day has been running since 1911, and each year there is a theme. The theme for 2014 is inspiring change, celebrating social, political and economic achievements of women whilst focusing world attention on areas requiring further change. I feel honored as a woman to play a small part on this special time of the year. If my speaking out about Church abuse saved one little girl or just one woman from going through what I went through in the hands of Pastors and a Church leader, then I feel my purpose was achieved. I want to inspire change. I am going to speak with such a voice on the 1st of March that even a woman in the remotest part of Africa will hear that there is a woman called Jean somewhere in this world who said NO to Church abuse. God will perfect that which He started. This day is not just about me, its for every woman who has suffered in the hands of any so called Man of God. Its time for change! 

Lets talk 1 March Fashion, shall we! 

Okay so I am kinda like a fashion freak. Fashion and style is at the heart of who we are as women. Fashion identifies us with our passions, and I sure wanted to bring this spirit into the 1 March event. When Muzvare Betty asked me what my favourite colour was, I visualised the event. Orange is not just my favorite color, orange is me. It defines me. I don't know why I love this color, but I have always been drawn to it ever since I was a child. Orange is colour of passion, even my living room is orange. I also  happen to wear a lot of orange. Muzvare Betty keeps talking about the venue for 1 March being a place of healing and moving on. Orange is actually one of the primary healing colors. Orange is optimistic. With its enthusiasm for life, the color orange relates to adventure, risk taking, inspiring physical confidence, competition and independence. Those inspired by orange are always on the go. Its a color that aids the assimilation of new ideas and frees the spirit of its limitations, giving us the freedom to be ourselves. What am I saying, for me orange is the ultimate fashion accessory. Just wearing this vibrant bold color is stimulating to me both mentally and physically. I am having my dress tailor made for 1 March, I want my designer to bring out the ultimate orange in me! For that reason the theme colors for this event are orange, brown and black. I hope we will all be rocking our orange swagga on 1 March in Essex. Brown is for the strong woman of color, and black is for black beauty and elegance, but the main color remains vibrant orange. 

 Some ideas on how to rock orange on 1 March...
 Orange always looks radiant on brown skin, here is one of my favorite natural icons Lira at the BET awards in tangerine orange...
 Some simple yet sophisticated orange designs  from Johari Designs
And don't we just love Jennifer Hudson especially in orange...
In Agape I was well known for wearing orange, I guess that was always the fighter in me...

Its International Women's Day, ladies lets wear orange for positive change! Oh and men are very welcome to the event too, they may not wanna wear orange, but black or brown would look good and complement the bright orange! Its an event for empowering women to say no to church abuse but men are also needed as the fear and stigma of spiritual and sexual abuse is instilled in women by men who have no awareness of spiritual related sexual abuse.  Its time for change for both men and women! 

The book signing

Its been pretty amazing. I am an author in my own right at last. I will be officially launching and signing my book Napolia on 1 March. Its taken me this long and for this reason this is my empowerment as a woman at its best. Signing my book on International Womens Day Launch. When you realize the sky is the limit and no man can ever take away the gift that is in you, not even a man of God, then you could not be more empowered as a woman. What God has blessed no man can curse. I launched my official website last week www.jeangasho.com  and  the book is now on Amazon and God is doing amazing things indeed. 

The Interview of the week

So Muzvare Betty Makoni interviewed a number of women in preparation for 1 March and I happened to be one of them. The interview is now available on Nehanda Radio please listen t it and be inspired. I couldn't believe it when I listened to the interview myself, some really mind boggling truths about the severity of church abuse in Agape. 

So dear readers, keyboard warriors, this is how far we have come, I hope to see you all on 1 March, its going to be a day like no other, come and be inspired. My family is also going to be there, and my dearest friends who have stood by me through these trying times will be supporting me. I am Jean, and I am a VICTIM NO MORE, till I see you on 1 March! Be blessed. 


One of my fashion inspirations for 1 March, this is not just a day for healing, its a day to rise up as confident stylish women of color....we are beautiful 



Thursday, 20 February 2014

From the blog Secretary: Debbie Mackenzie


Having been reading BOTH blogs, ‘He is still my dad’ and this one, but I am a supporter of the victims of Agape (AFANMI) and will fight till the end for justice.  I have written this to show the difference between the two blogs and the dirty tactics of the ‘others’.  So let’s see….
Taking that the ‘church’ is basically called Agape, I want to remind you what it actually means:
AGAPE = Definition: Agape is selfless, sacrificial, unconditional love, the highest of the four types of love in the Bible.
This Greek word and variations of it are found throughout the New Testament. Agape perfectly describes the kind of love Jesus Christ has for his followers:
Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them. (John 14:21, NIV)
AS FOLLOWERS OF JESUS CHRIST (I assume), we are called to love our enemy; forgive our brothers/sisters - these are very difficult to do when people become hurt through sharp, careless words, unthinking actions, and abuse, yet we are able to turn to Jesus time and again for forgiveness in this time of grace. We also need to learn to forgive those that have hurt us, so that we can move forward in life, however,  forgiving does not mean that we lie down and accept abuse towards up in any manner.  We are able to pursue justice for wrong doing, forgiveness is totally separate, as there are laws we need to abide both biblical and of the land.  The Lord teaches we are to follow the laws of the land. (1 Peter 2:13-17)
The whole saga of Jean vs cheaters in Agape; the other blog vs Jean has become a witch hunt of who did this and that, many are being hurt, but it has also enabled to give a voice to all concerned.  It is time to start to turn away from the personal vendettas but to seek the truth behind the abuse that has taken place.  This abuse is: Sexual, Financial, Bullying, Lying, Cutting off families and silence of many whom knows the real story. (This is just the tip of the iceberg!)
The other blog is determined to expose Jean’s past life is not only degrading, but it show how low morally they are using personal information to get back at her, and her family. They would disagree here by claiming that they are only exposing the truth; but, isn’t it true we all have something in our past we are not proud of, where we have done wrong?  As far as the ambulance story….there is always differing views on any event that takes place.  People will recall the scenario as they view it from which side of the fence they are sitting.  There is always a right and a wrong and where there are many people they will each give their own account of what happened, sometimes people have their own agenda and fear to tell the truth for fear of being an outcaste from where they want acceptance. These situations are complicated; however, having witnessed a similar event in Liverpool (Satellite), I can honestly say the event did happen the way Jean has told us on her blog.
As far as the sexual abuse visited in these blogs.... just because a person has been abused previously in their life, it does not mean that it won’t happen again. In fact, it is more likely to happen again as people tend to put themselves into similar situations (http://www.cirp.org/library/psych/vanderkolk/) this does not make them a liar, or someone who makes it up.  We can only surmise, as we were not involved at the actual happening of the abuse; hence we take a side.  Again, many factors need to be reviewed: has the accused, Dr Masocha done this before?  This must have happened as according to the charges, two people have reported sexual abuse. A woman, who we presume to be Jean, and a minor, who cannot be named for legal reasons.  Also, others are saying they too have been abused by the accused, Dr. Masocha.  So it has to be something much bigger than we can see, we again can surmise that people are just saying this, or that as you have implied Jean is posting anonymously, or maybe there is truth in these cries. I would say that there have been others, many are afraid to speak out, many are blaming themselves, all because of who the accused is and how he used his position to manipulate and take advantage of vulnerable people, including children. 
Having been abused myself, there have been posts of how an abused person should be smiling and posing.  How does an abused person look? Have they got a tattoo on them saying ‘I am abused’ – or do they put on a mask and hide what they truly feel inside? For me, I blocked it out for many years, and then it came back and I had to deal with it.  So, don’t judge a person by what you see, because you do not know the inner turmoil of hurt and pain.
The other blog, He is still my dad, has been talking about a book Jean wrote they call it the ‘300 book’ – firstly, this book was written and given to Dr. Masocha and ONLY him, even though they say differently.  It was written and given to in confidence to Dr.Masocha so he counsel and give spiritual guidance to Jean to bring healing from her past. It was NEVER MEANT FOR OTHERS to read or use against the person who wrote it.  Most of us, if not all have personal secrets, some worse than others –many people use the art of writing to express their troubling events to see them clearly. Jean did this and gave it to a leader of a church (Agape) to help with healing and prayer in the strictest confidence.  I shudder that this confidence has been broken; I ask who can one trust, especially if it is someone who says they are of God?  So, from the way that the other blog is using this personal information given to Dr Masocha, I ask…… The self-proclaimed ‘man of God’ has broken trust and confidence with one of his flock.  If he can do it once, who says he doesn’t always do it?
On the blog, ‘He is still my dad’, they say they are ‘Children of Agape’, if this is true, they do not understand the meaning of the word Agape.  Within Agape we were taught, ‘Agape is love, unconditional love’ – seems it is only for those within that church,  as when you leave, immediately you are called demonic, evil, dangerous and those in Agape are told to cut all ties – strangely, this is even to family members, husbands and wives who do not want to be in that church.  I can already see the comments how this is not true…. Let me tell you IT IS TRUE, IT HAPPENED TO US.
Our Mission now is to expose the truth, not through back stabbing comments/posts, but by going step by step through the teachings of Agape, to show how we have been groomed, manipulated and brainwashed, so much so that we believed we were true Christians.  We will be exploring:
·         Dr.Masocha’s qualification to start and lead a church - where he worshiped before starting his own church.
·         The Vision of Agape – how it was born, the contradictions within it
·         The Dr.Masocha’s teaching in: Threshing Floor (both editions); Dynamics; finance
·         Financial records
·         Surgeries: the dark secrets of these meetings
·         Leadership
·         Conferences: Men’s; women’s; youth; couples, family and others
·         Prayer retreats and Missions: what really happened?
·         Other topics that arise.
I leave you with these words:
Ezekiel 34:4: "You have not strengthened the weak or healed the sick or bound up the injured. You have not brought back the strays or searched for the lost. You have ruled them harshly and brutally."
Ron Henzel writing about Battered Sheep explains the above verse: This was a terrible indictment against the prophets, priests and governing officials of Israel in Ezekiel's day. It was their job to strengthen the spiritually weak, heal the spiritually sick, and bind up the spiritually injured. It was their job to bring back the strays and search for the lost.

Sound familiar?
Former Agape Attaches Debbie and husband Arthur Mackenzie

Sunday, 16 February 2014

Something that encouraged me, a report by the Afro News...

Read the report by Stephen Ogongo Ogong'a here 
Jean Gasho says nothing will stop her from telling the truth about the sexual assault and many life threatening emotional abuses she experienced at Agape for All Nations Ministries International Church
A young UK-based Zimbabwean woman is determined to fight for justice after being “cruelly abused by a religious man who controlled” her.
Jean Gasho says she was “abused, betrayed and humiliated” by Pastor Walter Masocha, the founder and leader of the Agape for All Nations Ministries International Church.

Her courage to talk about the sexual assault and many life threatening emotional abuses she experienced with Dr. Masocha, has caused her so much trouble.

The church members, especially women refer to Dr. Masocha as “Daddy”. “I struggled initially to call him Daddy but he kept calling me his beloved daughter, and in the end I could not stop calling him Daddy and I even saw him as a father figure in my life, more important than my own biological father,” Jean says.


Jean Gasho urges women to develop courage and speak up and report abuses in church
She is still unable to understand how a man of God, a man she trusted to an extent of calling him “Daddy”, ended up ruining her life and family.

Pastor Masocha, who is also originally from Zimbabwe, was recently arrested and is currently facing two charges of sexual assault – one on a child and one on an adult.

He was Jean’s spiritual father for about two years, until last year. “During those two years I watched the man I had trusted as my father slowly turn me against my husband and manipulate me in ways that were so cruel and almost inhuman. I used to confide in him and shared all my weaknesses with him, as he said I was supposed to tell him everything. He then started using the information I shared with him against me,” Jean says.

The pastor, Jean says, put her in the spotlight in the church. She was actively involved in various activities including drama, magazine and artwork for the ministry. “This caused a lot of the women in the church to resent me and bully me, yet Dr. Masocha never supported me or shielded me from the bullying,” Jean says.

She was later on surprised to find out that Dr. Masocha “was even behind the bullying.”

Dr. Masocha “orchestrated an ambulance being called in the middle of a church service to section me under the mental health act,” Jean says. “He also planned to have my children taken away from me. As if this wasn’t enough, during prayer surgeries he used to extend his hands and touch me on places that are only meant for a husband to touch his wife. I felt violated and would even come home and tell my husband, but my husband would say the Archbishop was a prophet and he knew what he was doing.”

Jean Gasho appeals to men to stand with their wives and daughters and not to blame them for being abused
Asked what made her rebel and break the silence on these abuses, Jean says: “Just before the ambulance incident, my eyes were starting to open and I saw the deception in the church, especially among the pastors. There was so much bullying and every Sunday I dreaded going to church.”

Jean’s husband however, never listened to her fears. Whenever she refused to go to church, her husband called her “demonic” and even reported her to Dr. Masocha.

“My marriage was so strained by the church, emotionally and financially, and Dr. Masocha was doing nothing to help us. I got to a point where I couldn’t do it anymore, for sanity’s sake,” Jean says. “My husband was becoming more and more abusive, and everything he was doing he said he was being instructed by Daddy. I started to see that slowly it was Daddy who was destroying my life.”

Jean says she was also “humiliated and labelled mental in front of the whole church” by her sister in law who is a pastor in the same church.

The church’s attempt to section Jean under the mental health act failed because the medical staff saw there was nothing wrong with her. “The backlash from the church was unbelievable as they were outraged that I was not sectioned. I was then badly beaten by my husband who was also outraged that I was not sectioned,” Jean says.

At that stage she decided to flee her matrimonial home and sought safety in a women’s Refuge. “In the Refuge I had lost everything and I felt I had nothing to lose. I had reported the sexual abuse to the police and I felt nothing was being done to bring Dr. Masocha to justice. Without a voice and in despair, I started a blog and started writing my own online diary of my horrendous experiences in Agape. The blog created a huge public interest for some reason, and victims of Dr. Masocha started speaking out.”

Jean’s decision to speak out about her bad experience in the church marked the end of her marriage. “My husband chose to side with his mother and sisters and Dr. Masocha, and he forsook me and his children. As I speak today, he is busy preparing to testify against me in court in support of Dr. Masocha. It’s been a very painful experience for me,” she says.

Jean admits that her experience at Agape seriously affected her faith. “I am human I won’t lie. I felt confused especially about the very nature of God. At one point I believed Dr. Masocha was a real man of God, then the next minute I could not see God in him. I struggled with that, and even still do to some extent,” Jean says. “I am now very sceptical of churches and men of God, but I have fought within myself to keep my faith. My daughter once asked me why God had allowed what happened to us to happen if He was a God of love. I didn’t know how to answer her, but I could only say maybe one day it will all make sense, if we continue to trust in the Lord. In all this I have learnt that bad things happen to people, even though we may not understand why. I still love the Lord, and it’s my faith that keeps me going.”

Jean Gasho says Pastor Walter Masocha used to extend his hands and touch her on places that are only meant for a husband to touch his wife
Jean is disappointed with the way other church members, especially women reacted when she broke the silence on the abuses. “The Church members especially women are among my worst enemies. They called me all sorts of names and even started their own blog in which they defamed me beyond measure. I have received death threats and continue to receive nasty anonymous letters from members of Agape,” she says.

Apart from her faith, Jean says her three children also keep her going. “I have to overcome for them. I also have a lot of support from the public and I draw a lot of strength from people who believe my story. Some people also email me and share their similar testimonies of abuse in Agape. When I realise that this is not only about me, but hundreds of other victims out there who are afraid to speak out, I find courage to do it for them,” she says.

Jean, who confirms that she has reported Dr. Masocha to the police and relevant authorities, believes that one day justice will take its course. “It may not happen overnight, but I have learnt that speaking out is the first step towards achieving justice, and I will never stop speaking out.”

Asked to react to the news of Dr. Masocha’s arrest and sexual offence charges, Jean says more victims will come forward. “I feel a sense of relief within my spirit, but I know it’s going to be a long road,” she says.

Jean’s advice to women and girls who face abuses in the church is: “Have the courage to speak out. Find someone you trust to confide in, someone who is not a member of the church. Many women make the mistake of confiding in church members, who will in turn label them mental and demonic. This happened a lot in Agape and victims are left off worse than if they had not spoken out. The key is to know who to speak to.”

She says she was lucky to have Muzvare Betty Makoni, the Founder of The Girl Child Network, as “a shoulder to cry on,” adding that Ms. Makoni took her “under her wings with care and compassion.”

Jean also advices women and girls who face abuses in the church to speak to their local GPs. “A lot of women also fear their husbands will disown them if they open up about abuse, especially within the African culture. I would like to encourage men to stand with their wives and daughters and not to blame them for being abused,” she says.

Thursday, 6 February 2014

My first book NAPOLIA, Zuza and the lost Princess is now out!

As my book goes live today Dr Ian Brock McHardy writes to me that hes taking me to Court for defamation unless I remove the post about him by tomorrow and apologize for calling him a thief and a fraudster. 

I will not be removing the post neither am I apologizing so I guess will be facing Dr Mchardy in court. 

Well I am just happy my book is finally out! 


Read the first chapter of my book on my official website www.jeangasho.com which goes live tomorrow and order your copy now on Napolia: Zuza and the lost princess!



Its taken me 17 years to finally achieve this dream. I started writing books when I was 15 years old. Today my first book Napolia, Zuza and the lost Princess has been launched LIVE with my publisher Author House. I wrote this book when I was still a member of Agape, and Dr Masocha had promised me he was going to make me an established author and that he would get the book published for me. He tore my writing dreams apart, and did everything he could so that Napolia would never be read by anyone else. Today if Dr Masocha would have had his way, I would be somewhere locked up in a mental institute, and my dreams would have been shattered for life. But the higher he built his barriers, the taller I became. The furthest Masocha took my rights away, the faster I ran. The more he refused to hear my voice, the louder I became. There was always something inside me so strong, and my light will shine so bright that it will blind you Dr Walter Masocha. Its a shame I have released my first book without the support of the father of my children, as I write this Shingai Musuka is busy preparing for the court case as he will be Dr Masocha's key witness to testify against me in court.

As for me I fought back the system that almost took not only my destiny away, but my children. After fleeing the abusive cult, I was free to pursue my dreams, and today I am a registered author in this world in my own right. My children are my treasure, and they inspired the story of Napolia.

As you know I once did 40 illustrations for Dr Masocha's Threshing Floor book in one week, so much I had blisters on my fingers from drawing. Today I can proudly say I also did my own illustrations for Napolia, I drew them in my own time, and my three beautiful babies were with me all the way. My children are my greatest fans, i wrote this book for them, and everyone in their school knows that their mummy is an artist and author of a very interesting book called Napolia, Zuza and the Lost Princess. In fact my little boy will be taking a copy of Napolia to share with his class on his special share day this month.

I will be signing copies of Napolia at the 1st of March event being hosted by Muzvare Princess Betty Makoni. I really hope you all support me and buy a copy of Napolia. The book was launched today at Authorhouse and I am ecstatic!

Also you can read an interview I did with Bulawayo News 24 last week in preparation of Napolia release on One on One with Author of Napolia

You can also buy a copy on my official website on www.jeangasho.com will be launched tomorrow. 

Please note Napolia only went live today, it will take about a month for it to be launched on major online retailers like Amazon and book stores. Please buy a copy!




Ever since I was a little girl, the only art I ever knew was to draw with my ballpoint pen. I love pen art. These are some of my pen illustrations in my book Napolia. 


Princess Tamara

 In Malia's bedroom

Please do come to the event on 1st of March where I will be signing copies of my book. 




Wednesday, 5 February 2014

Former Archbishop Masocha makes headlines in home town local paper with two sex charges

DR MASOCHA FACES TWO CHARGES OF SEXUAL ASSAULT, ONE ON A CHILD

STAFF NURSE JULIUS GAYAKAYA GIVES OFFICIAL STATEMENT TO LOCAL PAPER

DR WALTER MASOCHA HAS TAKEN LEAVE FROM POSITION AS ARCHBISHOP WHILST ON BAIL


Dear readers
A lot has been going on in the background. Today I was in Scotland at Falkirk and Stirling  for reasons I cannot disclose on the blog. However I managed to pick up the local paper at Stirling and it was no surprise to me that former Archbishop Dr Masocha was making the headlines on the front page in Stirling for all the wrong reasons.


Agape Head Office in Stirling were the former Archbishop conducted his "surgeries"



STIRLING OBSERVER 

Church Leader on sex chargers 

By Stephen Robertson
www.stirlingobserver.co.uk 

An Archbishop of a church based in Stirling appeared in court this week charged with two sexual assaults.

Walter Masocha (49) leader of Agape For All Nations Ministries International Church which has its head office in the city's Melville Terrace, appeared in private and on petition at Stirling Sheriff Court on Monday. 

Masocha, of Cosyneuk House, Sauchieburn, is accused of two charges of sexual assalt- one on a child and one on an adult. Both are alleged to have taken place at his home. 

Appearing from custody before Sheriff Wyllie Robertson on Monday afternoon, Masocha made no plea or declaration and the case was continued for further examination. He was released on bail and will return again to court in relation to the charges on a date yet to be determined. 

Up to 40 members and former members of the church attended at the court building this week and a number packed into the courtroom itself prior to his appearance. 

With the case being heard in private, as is normal court procedure in relation to petition cases, they were unable to sit in on Masocha's appearance, however, and had to make their way out of the courtroom into the corridor. There, some began to pray, one on her knees- before the group's sheer numbers led them being advised to clear what is a non waiting area of the court and to wait outside. 

The church website says that the Archbishop Masocha was both "leader and founder" of the church, which was described as "a fast growing Church established in August 2007". It is also stated that Masocha "is a renowned preacher and teacher of the word of God, a powerful evangelist and prophet of God with a clear calling of an Apostle of Jesus Christ". 

The church itself is also said to have a number of "satellites" in Africa as well as others in Europe and North America. 

An Observer reporter called at the Church's unassuming head office in Stirling's Melville Terrace yesterday (Tuesday) where the only indication that it was based there was a handwritten intercom nameplate showing the word, "Agape". 

While there was no one available for comment at that time, a spokesperson for the Church later called the Observer office to provide a statement in relation to the matter.

It said, " The National Executive Board has accepted the offer from the Archbishop to take leave of absence from his role to protect the name of the ministry and also to concentrate on legal proceedings"


Dear readers, it has also been reported to me that my former friend  Felistas Mudzingwa has been making the comments on this blog lately because she is reported to have been bought a new Mercedes by Dr Masocha to cover up the Liverpool Youth Sex Scandal. Staff Nurse Felistas Mudzingwa and her husband former Nurse Roy Kudzai Mapfumo of Southport are Youth Advisors in Agape and are responsible for giving biblical sound advice to the youth in Agape and making sure they don't engage is illicit sex during conferences. Felistas's husband Roy Kudzai Mapfuma is no stranger to controversy, whilst members of Agape Church Roy was sentenced to 9 months in prison in 2009 after being convicted at Liverpool Crown Court following an investigation by NHS counter fraud.

Felistas Mudzingwa and myself  on 2 June 2013 the day after Sandra Masocha Tutani's wedding in Stirling



A picture of me this afternoon 5 February 2014 in Scotland at Falkirk Police station, were Dr Masocha spent 4 days and 4  nights in custody last week. It was a very emotional experience for me today. 







Monday, 3 February 2014

At Stirling Sherif Court: Former Archbishop Dr Masocha granted bail after appeal

Dr Masocha was initially denied bail but after appealing he was granted conditional bail. Obviously being as shallow as puddles  and uneducated in how the criminal justice system works in the UK,  the Agape Team are celebrating the bail mistaking it for freedom.  They may not obviously understand what bail actually means.  He has not been acquitted, he is on bail.  Many dangerous criminals get conditional bail before they are sentenced.  The former Archbishop has been warned not to commit any other offences whilst on bail. 

However it was a dramatic day at Stirling Sherif Court today. Dramatic indeed. Two strong members of Team Jean Keyboard Warriors spent the day outside and inside the Court in the small city of Stirling. The weather was gloomy and deary, and so was the mood of the Agape Team who turned up in masses, ummm by masses  I mean just over 30. Most of them looked shabby and unkempt, dressed in Agape T-shirts and a few were in overalls and comer-flash uniforms, murmuring and chanting out around the court building throughout the day. Among the chanters was Evangelist Tsitsi Chikowre and Josse Nenzou. Sharon Masocha, David Chikukwa and Caroline Joy Mahachi turned up in huge dark sunglasses, it could have been to hide the puffy eyes and at one point the atmosphere could be cut with a knife. Biological son Tafadzwa TT was also among those supporting the former Archbishop. Biological son Tinashe did not turn up. Surprisingly Sandra Masocha Chihuri was a no show, however her mother Judith Masocha the Prophetess looked gaunt and visibly strained, but was kind enough to greet the Team Jean Keyboard Warriors, awww bless. Shadreck Masocha was also said to be polite and greeting members of Team Jean. EE Amy Asante and her mother Amy were as serious as ever representing the security guards of the former Archbishop. Soliwan Enock  and Portia Dube where representing the youth. Charles Chademana was representing the website team. Josse Nenzou was representing the decorating team. Mary Chikukwa was representing the evangelists. Lydia Khumalo was there representing the surgery team. Tinashe Hove was there representing the FINANCE BOARD. And the head Chef  Trudy was there but sadly she was not allowed to pass over her cooked waitrose organic food to the former Archbishop. Most of the Team Agape were reported to be looking painfully thin and hungry as they continue to fast for their daddy. 

After waiting all morning at Stirling Sherif Court, at 2pm sharp people were finally allowed to enter the Court Room. Agape Team caused so much havoc and disorder to the embarrassment of those around, they flooded the courtroom and sat two by two on seats meant for one person. They were ordered to leave the courtroom and only a certain number was permitted in. " It was so embarrassing Jean, the same behavior they do at the Doncaster Dome is exactly what they were doing in the Court room, I had never seen anything like it," one Keyboard warrior informed me.

 However when it came to the hearing of the former Archbishop, everyone was instructed to leave the courtroom and told the hearing was going to be private due to the nature of the case. The former Archbishop was initially denied bail but appealed against the decision and was later granted bail on second hearing.  Will keep you posted on upcoming hearing dates. Please take heart Team Jean keyboard warriors, murderers and rapists are granted bail. He still has to face trial . Our God is a God of justice.

Photo of Stirling Sherif Court building taken this morning by a team Jean member. 


Luxury now threatened, Stepdaughter Sharon Masocha posing at an expensive London get away in October 2012 were they hired a limousine and champagne and stayed at Hilton hotel for a birthday celebration. The weekend of their luxury getaway their father Masocha was on a luxury break in Macedonia and I was at home with no electricity or food due to extreme poverty. I have emails sent to Dr Masocha to prove what I am saying. 


In the mean time I leave you with Muzvare Betty Makoni' press release statement building up to the 1st of March event, please be there!

Victim No more –Jean Gasho story - Girl Child Network Worldwide hosts International Women`s day
The Founder and Chief Executive Officer of Girl Child Network Worldwide which is an international development charity championing for the rights and empowerment of girls as well as supporting their education, peace, safety and justice in the home, school and communities in four countries including United Kingdom will on 1 March host International  Women Day to celebrate the strength of remarkable women and girls who have broken silence on abuse happening especially in churches.  Stanford Le Hope has been chosen to be the place to host the event because of its peace and quiet as well as encouraging more activities especially from the Black and Ethnic minorities around domestic violence and rape.  The event coincides with many cases of Pastors being implicated in rape crimes in the church round the world.
The theme for this year, Victim No More –Jean Gasho Story is centred around a woman who broke silence on the sexual assault and many life threatening emotional abuses she experienced with a church leader in UK. This led to publication of a testimony on her blog, He Was My Daddy which has been viewed by over half a million people in UK and worldwide. Breaking silence made to a serious backlash by  some members of the Agape Church leading her to seek refuge and support from Women activists like Betty Makoni and many others. Sensing this might have affected more and more women and girls in the church, Jean Gasho has been very consistent in demanding justice and to be heard and the platform on 1 March during week leading to   International Women`s Day was found the most suitable one to support victims like Jean who through their courage want to share their story and help others break silence because as it stands the church leader is in police custody facing child rape allegations. 
There are many prominent and high profile key note speakers from all over the UK and the world.  The Special Guest and Director of Program for the day is Princess Deun Adodyin Solarin who is a renowned TV host for the Princess of Arize! Show on Ben Television and Award winning innovator, communicator and Founder of Pan Afrikan Movement ,Betty Makoni  a renowned gender activist who is Founder of Girl Child Network Worldwide and also Gender Based Violence Expert for Foreign and Common Wealth Office Preventing Sexual Violence Initiative,  Evangelist Elizabeth Kalonga who is Founder of House of Memory in Malawi which spearheads protection of women and girls  who end up on the streets, Spiwe Harper is Author and Educationist who recently published her  book Footprints In The Mist of Time, Rumbidzayi  Bvunzawabaya who is a solicitor and lawyer specialising on immigration issues as well as Founder of a charity Uhuru which gives  psycho social support to immigrants who face challenges  have all confirmed attendance to the event. Many professionals, media personalities women pastors, musicians and women survivors of domestic violence and sexual violence from Essex and around the world are expected to grace the occasion.
`We welcome sponsorship of any form because this event is creating the so much needed platform for women from all walks of life to come together, speak out, heal and finding lasting solutions to abuse. Those who wish to support us on the day are free to do so. We have Jean who needs support and we have made sure some proceeds from the day are donated to her so that she supports her three children during this difficult time. She needs to start from somewhere and we strongly feel  even though in a small way this gesture is worth it`, said Fayi Tsikwa the event coordinator.
Meanwhile Betty Makoni welcomes guests for the event to the quiet and peaceful town of Stanford Le Hope.
`I can’t think of anywhere better to create such a platform like this  where we will inspire and empower each other whilst ensuring such gross violations of women`s rights stop once and for all. Many women and girls fail to report due to fear and bringing all experts who help in such cases will reassure women. Welcome to Stanford Le Hope everyone. It is time to act and not just talk., said Betty Makoni
A petition to call on UK government to assist victims of abuse through the church is doing rounds on the internet. Pastor Cindy Martin who is an Ex member of the church who will also be there 
Important links 


Friday, 31 January 2014

Archbishop Dr Walter Masocha arrested!

Church Release first statement on website as Leader remains in custody

Dr Walter Masocha spends the night behind bars and is to appear at Stirling Court on Monday 3 February 2014 charged with multiple sexual offences  


Ahoy Team Jean! Ahoy Keyboard Warriors! 

I can now confirm with my close Team that Dr Walter Masocha the leader and founder of Agape For All Nations Ministries International was arrested last night at his Cosyneuk Mansion in Scotland charged with sexual offences and is due to appear in court on Monday the 3rd of February. God is a God of justice indeed! I can also confirm that there is great weeping at Cosyneuk Mansion as stepdaughters Sandra and Sharon are distraught over the arrest of their father. The Prophetess is also said to be inconsolable over the matter. I am lost for words myself but I am going to be travelling to Scotland Stirling over the weekend so that I can face Dr Walter Masocha in court and look him in the eye as he is the man who broke my marriage and took away my children's father. As you know my husband Shingai Musuka forsook us to follow Dr Walter Masocha and he has not seen his kids in over 6 months and refuses to look after them financially. He also refused to pay the mortgage so my three children have lost their beautiful home. But God has heard my cry and today I can confirm that the monster who ruined my life Dr Masocha is now behind bars as I write this. I also wanted to remind Patience Musuka and Emmauel what ever his surname is to start looking for another Archbishop to wed them on their Agape wedding on 3 May because unfortunately their Daddy Masocha will be behind bars as he is not likely to get bail. I can now finally write in my native language, mwari vakanaka shuwa! I have lived to see justice served on the man who cruelly abused me! Team Jean keyboard Warriors farai neni zuva ranhasi! I will be seeing Dr Masocha in court on Monday as he will be charged with sexual offences! 

Please see below the sorry statement they released on their website yesterday. 

Agape For All Nations Ministries International Response to my Blog! 

There have been recent postings on social media that have involved and affected many people in – and with links to – Agape For All Nations Ministries International.
What initially began as an attack on a small group of individuals quickly involved other leaders and saints throughout Agape, and in some cases affected people outwith Agape. It has since largely became a platform for cyber-bullying, gossip, harassment and slander with others doing so in spiteful attempts to settle old debts or old scores, some of which predate the inception of the ministry.

We acknowledge the impact that this has had on the personal, family, work and church lives of many saints in the ministry and empathise with the hurt that we together have experienced.
It is worthwhile noting that Agape FANMI uses the money it receives to help achieve its stated claims and objectives and specifically has never given money to support, buy or loan the purchase of nay property, house, or car for anyone. This has been independently verified by our external auditors. It is also worthwhile noting that the Archbishop is married to one wife, our mother the Prophetess. The accounts of the church, which are prepared by a reputable firm of accountants, are publicly disclosed and discussed every year at the AGM during the UK Family Conference.
Since many of the accusations and statements posted on the social platform could be libellous, the Archbishop, Prophetess and senior leadership are receiving legal advice on the whole matter and do not wish to comment on the details of this at the current time.

We want to thank and appreciate all the saints, stewards, attaches, envoys, commissioners and Board members who have supported each other, the vision, ministry and have continued to worship and serve God during this storm.

As a ministry we draw the lesson learnt and accordingly we are reviewing our practise to minimise the risk of any similar situation arising in the future and to provide effective, timely support for those involved with such difficult situations. We reiterate that nothing we say or do in Agape is meant to direct our worship at any individual; only the Truine God (God the Father, God the Son (Jesus Christ) and God the Holy Spirit).
Although we support the right to free speech for everyone, we do not view social media in general as the appropriate platform for Christians in particular to air personal issues if there is a genuine desire to have them resolved.
There are clear instructions in the Word of God shared extensively in Agape that give direction on how to effectively address concerns that may arise between individuals. These include Mathew 6:12, 15 and Mathew 18:15-17. These Scriptures demonstrate a clear path of effective dealing with concerns through leadership if needed. We in Agape endorse the application of these. We believe that discussion of issues between individuals not directly involved is largely unhelpful and can be harmful.
As has already been communicated, we discourage all saints to respond to things posted on social media.
We suggest that saints spend time studying the Word of God and invest their spare time in more edifying activities and pursuits. We encourage all saints and leaders to keep on mission implementing the vision and to be united in prayer and mutual encouragement at this and all times.

Grace be unto you, and peace, FROM God our Father, and from the Lord Jesus Christ (1st Corinthians 1:3)


Dr Masocha now in custody

 Archbishop Dr Masocha signing the marriage certificate of his step daughter Sandra and Geoffrey Chihuri
Patience Musuka with my husband Shingai Musuka and brother Shepherd Musuka
 My once loving husband kissing me at the Agape Couples Conference 2012.