There were four of us in this marriage...

Dear Readers

 

During the course of the day after the publication of the blog post about Dr Ven Tauringana., circumstances beyond my control led to me remove the post. However I would like to inform my readers that I have now filed for divorce from my husband of 10 years Shingai Musuka. This has been a tough decision for me as a strong believer of the God ordained institution of marriage, and I believe what God has joined together let no man put asunder.  But it was after a long period of prayer and soul searching along with professional advice that I came to this desision. My sanity and dignity are important, and I believe God never intended for me to be in such an unhealthy relationship, both with my husband and my in-laws. I have decided to make my divorce public because this confirms my story that Dr Walter Masocha indeed broke my marriage and has denied my children the right to a father present in their lives. I filed for Divorce on the grounds of a third party interference in my marriage, as Princess Diana once famously said, "There were three of us in this marriage". I am sad to announce that there were  4 of us in this marriage, Shingai Musuka, Walter Masocha, The Musuka Family (Gertrude, Patience) and I was sadly the 4th one. My divorce proceedings will include the following email I sent to Dr Masocha on 17th November 2012 after I had read an email my husband had sent to Walter Masocha bad mouthing me and reporting me  that I wanted a high paying job and I had said Dr Masocha is living in luxury whilst the saints were suffering. I could not believe Shingai Musuka was taking our pillow talk to Dr Masocha, and that was the beginning of the breakdown of our marriage. So heartbroken was I that I sent an email to Dr Masocha refuting my husband's malicious allegations. Dr Masocha never bothered to reply the heart wrenching emotional email of a broken woman, but he had replied my husband's malicious email encouraging him to mistreat his wife. Dr Walter Masocha is therefor the main reason and cause for the breakdown of my marriage. In-laws Pastor Gertrude Musuka and Patience Musuka also playing a key role in the divorce. Other contributing factors to my divorce include Spiritual abuse, Church cruelty and physical violence by Envoys, Church bullying and many other mistreatments I suffered in Agape. My email to Dr Masocha back in November last year read as follows:

From: Jean Gasho <jeangasho@gmail.com>
Date: Sat, Nov 17, 2012 at 1:00 AM
Subject: In Response to Shingi's email. Please read this Dad.
To: Walter Masocha <vamasocha@yahoo.com>

 

Dear Dad.

I am hurt very much by the email Shingi sent you. I don’t normally read Shingi's emails. He reads mine. But somehow today after I finished a 3 day dry fast, something in me told me to check his emails. Something I have not done for maybe over a year. I do believe the Lord God wanted me to read that email. I don't believe it was an accident. I am hurt Dad because some strong things he wrote are simply not true. I didn't even know he perceives me that way. 

ABOUT ME WANTING A HIGH PAYING JOB

About me saying I want a high paying job as a Manager. I am shocked. Being a Manager is something I have never dreamt of becoming. All the jobs you see I have applied for are not managerial posts or high paying jobs. I don't understand why Shingi said this. You prayed for me and in your prayer you said you believed God would give me a High Paying Job. This were your words Dad, not mine. I was excited to hear this, then I told my husband, not knowing that he would use this against me. Soon after you prayed for me my sister made a confirmation of your prayer and said God told her that I would get a High Paying Job, a job which needs qualifications. She said this to me after I had not spoken to her at all about me looking for a job or anything. I told my husband. Maybe that’s where this accusations of me wanting a High Paying Job comes from. May God be by Judge of me.

 

I never want free money. I don't want anyone to give me money. In fact in the report I showed you about Social Services it said, "Jean says she has been reduced to a Charity Case". I want my own money that I work for, with my own hands. My husband does not understand me. I am very ambitious and I believe I have a destiny. I have a dream of becoming an actress, a movie director, an author  an artist, a journalist, a songwriter. I WANT TO DO SOMETHING. I WANT TO BE SOMEBODY . When I share my dreams with my husband, he mistakes it for being lazy. It hurts me so much. I want to be somebody one day, yet I can’t get a job as a cleaner. People will never understand  me, even my husband's family thinks I am lazy and useless. But I have 3 young children whom I have raised on my own without help.. But the God I serve will speak for me one day.

ABOUT ME SAYING YOU ARE ALWAYS GOING ON HOLIDAYS

Yes I did mention it to Shingi. I said Dad lives a life of Luxury. It’s not fair coz I am in extreme poverty. It was hard for me. A lot was happening. We were lacking food. Sleeping without electricity it was freezing. Things were unbearable. I was crying daily. And you were in Macedonia having a good time. The contrast was too much for me, so I said that. I doubted you for a while. I saw pictures of Sandra and Sharon on Facebook when they were in London. It just seemed so wrong. They were somewhere having fun and living the life, I was at home with three children and not enough food, yet we had paid so much money to the Church, so the thought came into my mind. So strong. So I said that. That’s the reason I said it. I am sorry in my heart I did say that. But I never thought Shingi would say it to you. About me saying I want money from you, It’s something I said to Shingi during pillow talk.  I just said If it was Sandra or Sharon suffering like this, surely the man of God would at least help them. I can’t see him letting his own children Sandra and Sharon  suffer like this. It then hit me really hard. I actually do not want you to feed me. That was never the context I meant. I don't want to be a lazy glutton waiting on you or anyone.  Never. The God of Agape knows my heart. He will defend me.  In fact I want to buy you things Daddy. That’s always been a prayer of mine. But in a moment of  hardship I said those things and I am sorry I said them. 

ABOUT ME ANGRY ALL THE TIME

Yes I have been upset in my spirit. Sometimes angry at life. Sometimes in despair. But not all the times. Even in those moment of darkness I danced for the Lord, I did activities with my children. Again God will defend me if need be. What can I say?

 

ABOUT ME WANTING TO LEAVE THE VISION AND REFUSING TO GO TO CHURCH. 

 

If you can check with the people at Wigan. I have never missed a Service or Prayer or Bible Study. I am active in the Church. I continue to be. We hosted Envoys Hove at our Get Together. I offered to have them stay in our house. Every time I am given a chance to speak, I speak highly of you. I have never slandered you to anyone. I have never slandered the Vision. I love you so much. So much it hurts. I wish I lived near you, to see you all the time. I am well known for Defending This Vision. I am well known for Loving You So Much. Yes in a moment of despair I said to my husband I want to leave Agape. I didn't mean it. It wasn't coming from my heart. In fact I don't even know if it was me speaking. Because I love AGAPE and my life and breath and soul is in it. I know what the God of Agape has done for me. He has helped me. He has saved me. How can I neglect so great a Salvation. To leave Agape I would be a fool. But anyway God knows my heart. Time will tell if I am truly Agaped or not. My God whom I serve will fight for me. 

 

 

ABOUT SHINGI CRYING TO YOU WHY I AM HIS WIFE

I never knew this. I had no idea he feels like this.  Anyway I have written a lot. Shingi has hurt me. If a man is crying to YOU that why did you give me this wife, then God help me how am I supposed to feel. I thought he loved me. I thought we were soul mates. I speak highly of Shingi to everyone. I even testify about him. I never knew he saw me as a challenge. I am hurt and shocked by my husband. I don't want to be a challenge to him. I don't want him to cry to you asking you why he married me. He wants a better wife who is not a challenge like Jean. I am not the wife he wanted. Dad I am not the best wife. I am not a good wife according to my own husband. I don't want to stay in this marriage anymore. I honestly thought he saw me as a blessing not a curse. But I am a curse to him. I suffered a lot in the hands of his family. I stood up for him for years. His family would give me a hard time all these years. They never accepted me in their family. He would not stand up for me. I was young and had no one. I was on my own. They all ganged up on me, even as a 19 year old girl. At one time I lived in Southport and the whole community of Zimbabweans was against me. On my graduation day I begged Shingi to be with me, and he said I had to respect his family first, I went to his brother Shepherd’s house and I was shouted at in the streets by his whole family whilst Shingi stood and watched. I was not allowed to enter his family's house and Shingi would leave me standing outside. He would go in to his family without me Dad, and leave me standing outside on my own. I was very young and lonely and I had no one. I am crying as I write this.  But I loved him and stayed even when I could have walked. Yet today he says I am a challenge. I don't understand. He never supported my Artwork. He thought I was crazy all these years when I was telling him my dreams. Yet today he sees my dreams coming to pass. I can’t do this anymore. The email he sent you was the most painful thing I have ever seen, and I know it was God who revealed it to me.

Yours in Christ

Jean

The luxury life of his step daughters Sandra and Sharon Lewis  (holidays abroad, extravagant weddings) at the expense of the financially struggling Agape saints (as mentioned in my above email to Dr Masocha.

 

 



 

With that Readers, I  now leave you with this video by one of my favourite Zimbabwean musicians Victor Kunonga. This video tells a story and depicts the cruel abuse being done by Dr Masocha to "children/women" who trust him as Daddy/ Baba.

My Open Letter To The Mayor of Bournemouth...

Dear Councillor Dr Rodney Cooper

My name is Jean, and I am a 31 year old mother of three children. I originally come from Zimbabwe, but have resided in the United Kingdom for more than 13 years. You may not know who I am but I would like you to take 5 minutes from your busy schedule and hear my  cry. As I write this open letter to you, I am walking through the wilderness of this world, harsh realities have been thrown into my face that I have no control over, and I simply don’t know what to do.  Many a nights I have cried tears of anguish, to the point where my tears have run dry. As you may notice Dr Cooper, English is not my first language. But when I was a five year old child, in a certain town called Karoi in a country called Zimbabwe, I learnt to speak English, and to write a bit of  it as well. From that moment something happened to me, and English became the only language I could ever express myself in, especially on paper.  I was always a quiet person, I could never say much, especially how I felt inside.  I then came across books by a certain woman called Enid Blyton, she expressed herself in such simplicity, yet she had the power to captivate my imagination, and send me into another world I could only dream of. I then learnt that when one doesn’t have a big audible voice, they can still be heard, somehow somewhere, yes they can still be heard.

I have to say Dr Cooper you  may wonder why I resorted to blogging to be heard. Well I tried all the more appropriate channels but my voice was simply not loud enough. So in a moment of despair and anguish, as I sat on a tiny bed in a women’s refuge only a few miles away from your town Bournemouth,  I set to pen and paper, and thus began to write. As I walk through the wilderness of this world Mayor Cooper, I lighten at a certain place only, and the pen and paper happens to be my source of strength. I can only fight back with what I know and how I know best.

 

I chose to make this letter to you open to the public, because my story is already in the public domain, and I have nothing to hide but I am in pursuit of justice. I understand that you were invited by Agape For All Nations Ministries International Envoy Sarah Yafele of Bournemouth Satellite to attend a Church Service on Sunday 29 September 2013. I understand that as the Mayor of Bournemouth, you accepted the invitation and attended a Church Service on 29 September 2013 in Bournemouth in which you were a speaker. I just want to point out that on that day, I was in Winchester at women’s refuge, and being a Sunday it was tough. I remember the day so well, it’s so vivid in my mind still. Sundays were always the most difficult days for me, because I had no church to go to, and it was the day I thought about Agape the most, because I knew Dr Walter Masocha was somewhere carrying on as if nothing had happened, yet my life had been utterly destroyed without mercy by this Church.  Well I could just mention that the only positive thing that happened on Sunday the 29^th September 2013 was a phone call from Zimbabwean journalist Lance Guma, expressing his concerns and interest in my story, and for me that was somewhat comforting.

Mayor Dr Cooper, when I found out that you were recently a special guest at Agape For All Nations Ministries International, I was truly shocked and had a lot of confusing emotions within me.  You have had first hand experience with Agape, you now even know some of the leaders personally. As I continue to echo on my blog, (the only voice I have)  the leaders of Agape have subjected me to unimaginable pain and torture, including been violently assaulted by male leaders in the name of exorcism.  

Dr Rodney Cooper, I fully understand that as a Mayor of Bournemouth, it is within your duty to attend religious gatherings of the many different faiths in your borough.  In my limited knowledge, I understand you act in the best interest of the public. I also believe each religious organisation you choose to support and attend should be a reputable organisation that also acts in the best interest of the public. For that reason, I address this public letter to you, letting you know of the horrendous cruelty I suffered under your choice of religious organisation to support.

Agape For all Nations is a Church which openly claims the following false misleading mission statements

1.       To reach out through the love of God, and communicate the message of the Christian gospel and way of life to all people regardless of their age, racial, social, religious or sexual background.

2.       To bring real and demonstrable help and relief to such people suffering spiritual, emotional or, physical need (John 3:16-17; Romans 15:13). Finding the lost, equipping the found.

3.       To be a Church that brings families back together through God's love, and a Ministry that represents one big family in Christ Jesus.

4.       To be a Christian Ministry that breaks all known barriers such as race, colour, tribe or clan, creed, bigotry or prejudice (Ephesians 4:4-6; Galatians 3:26-27).

In my open letter to you Dr Rodney Cooper, I am going to focus only on the above 4 missions statements as I try to show you that this religious organisation you attended called AGAPE is the very opposite of what they claim to be.  Its a religious organisation that hurt people. It destroys peoples’ lives and it cruelly puts women under severe humiliation and degradation.

 

1.       Agape aims to reach out through the love of God, and communicate the message of the Christian gospel and way of life to all people regardless of their age, racial, social, religious or sexual background.

In my experience in this Church, I have been subjected to the extreme opposite of God’s love. The Church leaders are very cruel in nature and express hatred to its full capacity. In the branch I used to worship in, Wigan, the leaders are mostly mental health nurses by profession. Three Nurses in particular, Gertrude Musuka,  Yvonne Gayakaya and Julius Gayakaya cruelly bullied me and subjected me to public humiliation using their professions as registered nurses in the UK and their positions in the church as leaders. Their cruelty towards me was instigated and sanctioned by the Church founder Dr Walter Masocha. Most of the cruel treatment I received from Gertrude Musuka, Yvonne Gayakaya and Julius Gayakaya was based on the fact that they carried out a full mental health assessment in Church and concluded that I was insane. I am not mentally unstable, the authorities and medics have proved this. But that’s not even the point, even if I WAS mentally unstable, that does not mean I deserve to be bullied or suffer such cruel stigma. I believe that people with mental illness did not choose to be that way, and it sickens me to the stomach that a church can mistreat someone and justify it because they are “mentally unstable”. Worse when they are mental health nurses.

I also continue to suffer public humiliation as the church labels me a ‘lesbian freak’ on the internet. I am not a lesbian but that’s not the point either, what shocks me is that the Church in their mission statement claims they do not discriminate on basis of sexual background and they say they will love anyone, straight or gay, however I have received the worst treatment of prejudice and condemnation on the grounds that the church labels me a “lesbian”. They even justify the abuse they subjected me to because they say I am a lesbian.

2.       Agape aims to bring real and demonstrable help and relief to such people suffering spiritual, emotional or, physical need (John 3:16-17; Romans 15:13). Finding the lost, equipping the found.

When I fled the Church and my matrimonial home in July 2013, I received no relief emotionally, physically or spiritually from the church; in fact I became an outcast and destitute thus ended up homeless in a refuge with my 3 young children. All my needs were being met by the British Government and various Charity Organisations as Agape forsook me and my kids. So I can also confirm to you Dr Rod Cooper, that the above mission statement from Agape is false. Even the food and clothes my children were wearing was coming from the Children In Need Food Bank. For that reason I will always be grateful for people who donate food to the Children In Need, I never knew one day I would be on the receiving end after being abandoned by a Church and my husband who has a full time job.

3.       Agape aims to be a Church that brings families back together through God's love, and a Ministry that represents one big family in Christ Jesus.

This is one mission statement I believe Agape should remove from their Vision Dynamics books and Website. Agape has one of the highest divorce rates in church history and I believe it is one of the most controversial churches to date. The Church thrives on breaking families apart. My 10 year marriage was broken by Dr Walter Masocha. He did this by turning me and my husband against each other. He advised my husband to forsake me and our children and my husband has taken this advice seriously. He no longer provides for his children in any way. He’s taken the advice of Dr Masocha so serious he has written several times to the Social Services asking them to take my children away from me because he says I am an unfit mother. In his own words as a committed Agape member he says my children needs to be removed from me because I am a) Addicted to pornography b) Addicted to blogging on the internet c) I am an extremist and d)I crave attention. According to my “Christian” husband, these above 4 reasons are good enough to have my children put into care. I am not any of those things, but even if I was I don’t think they are crimes deserving of such harsh punishment of having my children put in foster care when I love them dearly and live for them.  If Agape had it their way, I would be locked up in a mental hospital somewhere, my three children will be in foster care without their mother, and Dr Masocha would find a more suitable bride for my husband. With that I can safely conclude that Agape does not bring families together, but instead it ruthlessly destroys the institution of marriage and family.

4.       To be a Christian Ministry that breaks all known barriers such as race, colour, tribe or clan, creed, bigotry or prejudice (Ephesians 4:4-6; Galatians 3:26-27).

Again I fail to understand why Agape claims the above mission statement as I have been discriminated from all angles especially as a woman. I also have two friends who were kicked out of the Church because they presented with mental health problems. I was often banned by my husband and Dr Masocha from befriending anyone with mental illness as I was told it was spiritually contagious. I have suffered extreme discrimination for things I am not even, i.e. porn addiction, mental illness and lesbianism. I am not any of these things Dr Cooper, but I don’t believe people who are should be made to suffer as a result.

With the above I close my letter. I hope somehow you will read it. I am just a mother in pursuit of justice; a woman used, betrayed and abandoned. I have been left damaged and destroyed by Agape. But as a fighter, I refused to be defeated. For all the other women who have suffered under Agape and are afraid to stand up and fight back, I started this blog. Most of the women who go to Agape are vulnerable adults. They are mostly Zimbabwean immigrants who have come to the UK for a better life but end up on the other side of Britain, the one no one speaks about. These women often feel trapped in the Immigration system and have nowhere to run to. Their only answer to freedom is to seek religious help, and that’s where Churches like Agape come in. Sadly contrary to the “miracles and breakthroughs” promised by people such as Dr Masocha, people will then find themselves worse off than  before they joined these Churches. Its a reality in the British Society today, and my prayer is that somehow one day there will be laws to regulate independent Churches and self styled prophets.  And with that Mayor Councillor Dr Rodney Cooper, I close my open letter to you. God bless you.

Sincerely

Jean

 

The Mayor of Bournemouth Dr Rodney Cooper speaking at an Agape Church Service on 29 September 2013. 

A letter to my readers...

The Agape theme for 2013 is: Faith With Works: LIVING the Fruit of The Spirit; in a More Excellent Way, (Gentle Reminder)

Dear Readers

I just want to thank you all for your prayers, your love and support that you continue to show me. I see your fruit, and I am deeply touched, especially by the prayers. As Agape embark on a 40 day fast for their Prophet I would like to encourage you all to continue to pray for me, and to pray for all the victims of Dr Masocha, especially the women and children. There are over 50 alleged reported cases of abuse written on this blog and in private emials. Women claim to have been manipulated, abused and left for the cold by Dr Masocha. Now what we all have to understand is that this is a blog, and a blog can never be used in a court of law to bring someone to book, especially if the information written is by anonymous people. It will never happen. A number of women have emailed me and telephoned me to share their cruel harrowing experiences they suffered in the hands of Dr Masocha and his ministry. Some of the women are still bleeding profusely from the wounds inflicted by Dr Masocha. Some are receiving professional counselling and some are even in mental health institutes as a result. Now what has deeply saddened me in this whole process is that women who have reported the abuse to me privately and on this blog are not brave enough to report this man called Dr Masocha to the police. Not one woman is willing to stand up and call the police and report the abuse. One victim said to me that she did not want to report the abuse to police because if people knew everyone would call her a “whore”. She was petrified of being labelled and losing her reputation, and for that she would rather keep silent. But tell me somebody, is it not worth being called a “whore” for the sake of justice?  Isn't Rahab one of the most remarkable women in the entire bible known as 'Rahab the harlot?' Did Rahab the harlot not save the lives of many? I would rather be called a harlot and save the lives of many women and children. My reputation means nothing and I am not willing to compromise it for justice. Do you know people can commit suicide because of abuse? Is it not worth being castigated so that a man who has ruined the lives of many people can be brought to book and pay for the serious crimes he has committed. Did God not put the authorities in place to protect us?

Now listen carefully if you are an Agape victim, as long as you hide behind an anonymous keyboard and choose to remain unknown, your comment will mean nothing and it will sink into the bottom of the sea never to be traced or found. You do not have to “come out” here on the blog with your name, but please do the right thing before God and man and call the police and report the crimes done to you. That is the only way justice can ever be served. God is not going to miraculously bring Dr Masocha to book. He doesn’t work like that. He uses people like you and me, and talking donkeys if need be, and if you are a victim of Dr Masocha, God wants to use you to execute judgement on this matter. Look at me, I came out, but I am still standing aren't I? Even the blog Agape set to destroy me failed to achieve the purpose intended. I want to encourage you abused woman to be brave and do the right thing. God is not going to miraculously deal with Dr Masocha, He wants to use the authorities and the law but He needs people like me and you to achieve that.

I also want to address the majority of Zimbabwean men. I feel one of the main reasons abuse victims are terrified of coming out is because there is a stigma on women who gets abused. Zimbabwean men, please understand that it is not your wife’s fault if she was abused.  It is never a woman’s fault when she’s taken advantage of by a religious leader she trusted with her life. Even grown men are being manipulated and abused by Dr Masocha, how much more the women, whom the bible says are the weaker vessels. Zimbabwean men, I urge you to cut the culture barrier of stigmatising abused women, especially sexually. Please support your wives, sisters or daughters, and assure them that it wasn’t their fault and be the rock as they recover from the trauma and pain. Once you take your rightful position in protecting abused women, I believe the tide will turn and a lot of women will pluck the courage to stand up against abuse and take the appropriate action of reporting. I believe some Zimbabwaen men have a lot do with the fear in their women that paralyses them never to report a crime of sexual abuse.

I also want to urge Dr Masocha’s children and all Agape members to stop fighting on this blog.  Women who have lost their husbands through Dr Masocha and Agape, I understand your pain but please refrain from personally attacking your ex husbands and their new Agape wives on this blog. I understand there is a lot of pain, betrayal, bullying and heartache in Agape Church but this is not the platform to settle your differences. I believe your father Dr Masocha has appointed leaders for that reason. Why don’t you approach your Envoys or even Dr Masocha himself  if there are serious issues in your satellites/ branches that needs to be dealt with, this is not the place to fight and get back at each other and I don't think it will bring peace to the Satellites. You already have a maximum of about 6 members in each Satelite/branch so try not to destroy the little that's already there, or should I say that's left.  At this rate you are going Agape children, the Agape train will be coming a halt  immediately if its not already stopped and to restart the engine again will be a huge challenge.  Agape children please, you are in the year of living the fruit of the Spirit, please be obedient children and stop using this blog as your wrestling ring.

As for the stories about me being told by the authorities to remove my own pictures from my blog, this is news to me, I couldn't help but laugh. Where do you get your stories from? The blog pictures are simply down due to a technical problem, the blog does that now and again, and I simply have to reload the pictures. I will do at some point once time allows, so Ruvimbo Siwela Matorera , Patience Musuka, Gertrude Musuka and others posting here that the pictures have been removed, please don’t have a party yet. Sorry to burst your bubble but I will be uploading my pictures again once time allows. For now I thought a little facelift and makeover of the blog won’t be such a bad idea, sometimes change can be refreshing .

In the meantime I leave you with a repost of this picture of me and the two men I once trusted the most in my life. Look at them protecting me, you know the rest of the story...



Thou Shalt Not Obey Your Parents...says the Prophet

I  want to thank my Daddy, I mean my real Daddy, my biological father. The one whom God used to bring me into this beautiful world.  I could never thank him enough. The art I do, the writing I am so passionate about, the performances that brings out my gift of expression, the song writing  that brings comfort to my soul and everything that defines me as an artist, I can proudly say I am who I am because of my Daddy. He is the bigger Artist, the one I inherited the gift of ARTS from.   Sometimes it takes your world to fall apart for you to realise the people who matter to you the most, and if there's anything I have learnt from this whole ordeal is that my real Daddy really loves me, and I will give him the trophy of world’s best Daddy. Somehow he never liked the idea of me going to Agape, he watched helplessly as his daughter was taken by another man who claimed his position as my father. Sadly when I started going to Agape, my real Daddy was replaced by Dr Masocha. When I started going to Agape, with all the attention Dr Masocha was giving me, I started phoning my family and could not stop talking and bragging about my new found “Daddy” Dr Masocha. My family were greatly concerned and warned me, even telling me no one could ever replace my real father. I would get very upset, because I truly believed Dr Masocha was now my new “Daddy”. I would go back to Dr Masocha and report my family to him, everything they said word for word,  and through Dr Masocha’s advice, I was told to cut all communication with my family because he said they all hated me and did not want to see me prosper in life and were jealous that I had finally found a man who truly loved me like I had never been loved before. According to Dr Masocha, anyone who does not go to Agape and anyone who speaks negatively of Agape is of the devil.  Dr Masocha repeatedly told me that:

·         Our bond was eternal, our love for each other was sealed in heaven and no man could ever break us and often told me to kiss his photo in my house each time I felt lonely and upset.

·         He told me he loved me more than any man had ever loved me, he said he loved me more than my husband loved me (have texts and emails to prove it). Though I was smitten by these smooth words, I often found this  confusing that he said he loved me more than my own husband did.

·         He often told me that I was his favourite most beloved daughter. At one time he told me to be very careful in Church because he knew all the women where going to be jealous I was now his favourite.

·         He said I needed to disassociate myself from anyone who spoke negatively of him or Agape, family included.

 

Dr Masocha also used to cut me off from friends I had as somehow he convinced me all my friends were mentally unwell and continuing to befriend them would bring bad spirits into my house. As a result I cut off a friendship I had for over 9 years because Dr Masocha said she was a nut case, and even though I had taken my friend to him for help he had failed to "deliver" her and told me to ditch her. He also told me to end another friendship of mine because he said she had the "demonic spirit of Liverpool" whatever that means and I was forced to drop my friend at a time she ever needed me the most. I feel bad and stupid. Dr Masocha does not only HATE the institution of Marriage, dear readers please be aware that he also hates the institution of FRIENDSHIP. He also told me to cut myself from a friend who was helping me with prayer and said, "He was an eagle and an eagle travels alone, he said he does not have a prayer partner". I don't know what it is but he cant stand good friendship. He called it austerity measures and its a doctrine well written even in the 2013 Fruit of Spirit Booklet that teaches congregants have to cut off anyone who is negative about Agape.

 

 One of the things that really hurts about the way Dr Masocha spiritually abused me is that he sought to come between me and my family. He manipulated me and alienated me from my family during the two years I was in Agape. AGAPE WAS NOW MY ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY. At one time he was so angry that I had communicated with my real Daddy that he shouted at me on the telephone and told me I had just completely destroyed and ruined my own life by talking to my real father and telling him my dreams as an author. All I had done was I told my really Daddy that I had written a fantasy novel that Dr Masocha was gonna help me publish, somehow Dr Masocha was so annoyed with me that I “leaked” that information to my real father so much I saw the other side of Dr Masocha that day. The wrath of a Prophet. I noticed he had a temper and could also “loose it” like the rest of us humans who are not gods. I do have texts messages that do prove “Daddy” was not happy that I had told my real Daddy about the book publishing deal.

Now where I am going with all this? Why am I talking about my real Daddy and the one who once was my “Daddy” in the same blog post? Well I don't know if you have ever heard, that Dr Masocha specialises in turning families against each other, especially biological parents and their children. He does not only destroy marriages, and friendships, but he HATES THE INSTITUTION OF TRADITIONAL FAMILIES too. I don't know whatever spirit that is on him dear readers, but its a spirit of destruction . He has a HURRICANE KATRINA spirit, he destroys anything good that comes to him. He shows no mercy as he sweeps over the world with the love hatred of God....you fill in the blank. I don't know what marriages, friendships  and families ever did to him, but Dr Masocha clearly can't stand these institutions and he will utterly destroy them at whatever cost. The bible says talk is cheap, you will know them by their fruits rather, being a smooth talker or charmer on the pulpit means nothing, its by your fruits that you are known. The fruit of Dr Masocha has manifested itself as a Hurricane Katrina kinda fruit, coming with a fancy name yet destroying without mercy marriage, friendship and families, the three most important human institutions God ever created and treasures.  

This year in May 2013 in Stirling and Dudley, I was present at both conferences and have DVDs to prove it , Dr Masocha gave a teaching that will confirm and prove everything I am saying is true. He taught the children of Agape to refuse to obey or have anything to do with parents who do not like Agape or discourage attending the church/cult. He openly taught that the verse, “Children obey your parents in the Lord, Ephesians 6:1” is talking about spiritual parents in the Lord, and used the verse to refer it to himself as he does with most scriptures. He said children are nowhere instructed in the bible to “obey” their biological parents and he said he had received this "fresh" revelation in April 2013 in South Africa when some parents had disowned their children for going to Agape and called for Dr Masocha to release them. Dr Masocha said he went before the Lord in prayer and lo and behold , God told him nowhere in the bible does it say children should obey their biological parents, but rather they have to obey spiritual parents. This heretical unbiblical teaching had serious implications and consequences and a number of children of Agape then went on to disown their parents who were warning them about Agape. I personally know a number of Agape children from the Agape 666 Satellites (Wigan) who's relationship with their biological parents suffered because of Dr Masocha’s “fresh” revelation from the Lord that children should disobey their biological parents. I could even give you names but hey, let me have a name free blog post for a change.

In 2013 July at St Andrews Dr Masocha continued with his heretical teaching of disowning parents when he compared himself to the Pope and he claimed God had sent him to be the father of the fatherless. He taught that he had more authority and power as a spiritual father over a biological father, and he started a deliverance session where everyone, and I mean everyone started crying hysterically as Dr Masocha started delivering people from the “curses” of their biological fathers. Dr Masocha said a lot of his spiritual children had been under curses of poverty cast on to them by their own biological fathers. I had never seen people cry like they did that day, even the most dignified person lost it, and the yelling got out of control as Dr Masocha was presented with Fathers Day gifts (money). Ooops I had forgotten to mention it was on Fathers Day, and Dr Masocha did the best he could to make sure all adoration was given to him and yes he did get a big balloon that said “world’s best Dad”.

I thank God that even  Dr Masocha’s spell and curses could never separate me from my real Daddy. When my real Daddy heard the ambulance incident, he was so hurt and felt so helpless that all this had happened to me in the hands of the man (my husband) he had given his daughter to love, protect and cherish. But my Daddy comforted me, I remember the day I spoke to him as I cried on the phone, he said to me, "Jean mwanangu, listen to me, chinyarara kuchema, I am your real father, and handina mwana anoitwa zvakadaro, do you hear me?” There was a power in my father’s voice. A power of hurt. A power of betrayal. But most of all, a power of a fathers pain inflicted by the person he trusted the most. My father loved my husband so much. He took him as his own son. He trusted him with me. When I heard my fathers voice on the phone, that was the moment Dr Masocha’s chains were broken. My eyes were opened, and I realised that after all was said and done, blood was thicker than water indeed, and Dr Masocha had never loved me, or cared. He was never hurt that Gertrude Musuka called the ambulance on me. Guess who was real hurt, my real Daddy. My real father swore to me that as long as he is alive, no person will get away with treating his daughter the way Dr Masocha and my in-laws treated me. I realised that Dr Masocha’s  daminable doctrine that a spiritual father (whatever that means) has more power than the biological father because my real fathers words of pain and betrayal continue to sustain and comfort me today. I know without a shadow of doubt that somewhere somehow my real father’s words will always haunt Dr Masocha were ever he is today. My biological father has power over a “spiritual” guru like you Dr Masocha, and by the grace of God I am still standing after everything you put me through. And know this, my real DADDY will always be behind me, 100%. And may I say thank you Lord you made me a writer, I never knew my healing process from Spiritual Abuse would include the therapeutic and reflective process of an online Diary called, He was my "Daddy." Funny how God works I leave you with this email from Dr Masocha on June 5 2013 to prove I never begged him to do the artwork as his children imply.

Walter Masocha <vamasocha@..........>	Jun 5

 

Beloved daughter, Jean. Here is a list of the images I need for the book. Would you be able to draw these in a week? I shall call yoo to discuss the ones you gave me last time. Soo happy with them because it seems you have caught the idea. I would appreciate if you would work on this straight away, if you are able to, as I need these as a matter of utmost urgency.

1. Images/pictures of threshing floor
2. Images of 9 story grand house/mansion, with a lovely Penthouse at the top
3. Wheat in field or wheat being harvested
4. Someone working out in the gym/ lifting weights
5. Threshing Floor of Araunah
6. Ruth on the Threshing floor
7. Image of winnowing process
8. Image of the sifting process
9. Dirty Dishes and Dirty Linen/clothes, plus clothes on drying line
10. Hyenas, jackals and wolves
11. Pregnant woman or women,
12. Drunk person or ppl
13. People gossipping
14. Someone looking in the mirror
15. Human mouth, showing teeth, tongue and lips
16. Human tongue
17. Images of people queueing (as in going for surgery) or waiting to be attended to
18. Images of a Man of God or Prophet
19. Images of someone being counselled one on one
20. Traffic jam
21. Images of murderer or someone knifing someone
22. Someone in the toilet, either one person or a group of ppl
23. Cracks on someone's feet (man'a)
24. Someone having shower or just the shower sprinkling water
25. Wrestling ring (either people or cartoons)
26. Image of orange/fruit with segments (Fruit Of the Spirit)
27. Heart or group of hearts, depicting LOVE
28. Image symbolising clinic ie hospital or nurse etc etc
29. Someone in Intensive Care Unit, depicting Surgery
30. Images of wasps (mago) in a tree or bush (chigwenzi)
31. Vehicle being attended to (to show/symbolise MOT)
32. Green leaf from a shoot (to show Re-freshness)
33. Someone on the Penthouse of the grand house, rejoicing, with beatiful views of beautiful scenery with mountains, lakes, sea etc etc in the distance
34. Wheat bundle  
35. Beautiful Wheat seed in a container or in a hand etc
36. Page full of wheat seed everywhere
37. People rejoicing and having a party - some dancing, some praying, some jumping etc etc showing rejoicing

It would be most helpful if you were able to SCAN and e-mail back the images as a WORD document to make it easy for me to cut and paste. 

Looking forward to hearing from you soonest.

You know I love you,

Daddy vako. xxxx

 

Below are pictures of the illustration artwork I did for Dr Masocha's book Threshing Floor. I have emails of the scanned artwork sent to him, I also gave him all the original images which he is in possession of today. I did over 30 images in 5 days, leaving me with blisters on my fingers. He chose to phone the publisher last minute and remove all my artwork from his book because I was now estranged from the Church. I also contacted the publisher asking them not to publish my illustrations in Dr Masocha's book. I wish he could give me back my originals. 

 

 

 



TO HAVE AND TO HOLD...

INAPPROPRIATE SERMONS BY DR MASOCHA AT COUPLES CONFERENCES

Warning: Read at own discretion, some readers may find article disturbing.

In September 2011 at Manchester, was the first ever Agape Couples Conference attended by over 50 couples. The Couples Conferences are arranged and organised by Board Member Gayakaya who left his wife for another woman. At this first ever conference, Dr Masocha came in full force. He tickled every couple's ears with his shocking vulgar jokes and  somehow took off his jacket of eloquence  and  became the male version of Zimbabwean well known controversial sex teacher Mai Gunguwo. The often charismatic speaker started the conference by sharing a very disturbing joke about a woman who was brutally raped by a police officer who fancied her. The joke was brutal and disturbing. How an Archbishop  can find it okay to joke about the rape of women is just beyond me. Not only did he tell the crude joke, he went as far as to demonstrate how the man was raping the  woman and he even said it was based on a true story. I looked around me and saw everyone laughing, but deep down I was deeply disturbed and uncomfortable so much I asked my husband later if I had missed something. I was more disturbed because he said it was a true sorry, but my husband reassured me and said DR Masocha was just saying that, but obviously it was not a true story.

As if the "rape" joke was bad enough, Dr Masocha later on in the evening as couples were having dinner sitting at round tables, delivered the sermon of the Day he titled, TO HAVE AND TO HOLD. As I mentioned couples were sitting at round tables, meaning everyone was looking at each other. Dr Masocha then taught that most couples did not use each other's bodies as they should, and he wanted couples to have each other, but more so to hold each other literally. Again as he had demonstrated the rape joke before, he then thought it was appropriate to tell his congregants to demonstrate to each other how to have and to hold each other.  Readers I know this sounds unbeliavabnle, but I am not lying. I wish I was. Please note Agape is a church/cult full of family members, uncles, aunties, mothers, fathers, sisters, daughters congregating together. As you know for instance my husband's family all go to Agape, except his older brother and his ex Agaped wife.(When she left Agape after some incidents she ripped all the Agape Books and binned then, which resulted in Pastor Gertrude branding her demonic and possessed so much she phoned the whole the community calling for prayer for her sister-in-law) Anyway back to the Couples Conference. Now in such a setting, with some family members sitting together,  Dr Masocha had the guts to ask every husband to turn to his wife and start touching and stroking their wife's breast in full view of everyone. He even told the husbands the hand to use, if I remember correctly it was the right hand. I remember my husband's sister Patricia was sitting opposite us with her husband, it was so embarrassing and my husband could only look away. Husbands started touching their wives breasts, as other couples looked on, cringe.

Now please brace yourself for this one, it got more explicit than that, Dr Masocha then asked the wives to; in front of everyone go into their husbands trousers and do the did. I am sorry readers, what happened next is too explicit to write down, I couldn't possibly, but the whole atmosphere was transformed into LIVE church pornography as  Dr Masocha looked on and smiled. A number of couples visibly looked shocked and embarrassed, reluctant to perform acts reserved only for man and wife in the privacy of their bedrooms, but Dr Masocha would pick on them and encourage them not to be ashamed and get on with it. The whole porn session was recorded on video by registered sex offender Maxwell Nyakutya, who will have copies of the DVD as he is the head of Agape Media. The DVD was not to be sold to congregants as we were told it was only for Dr Masocha's private files. What he wanted to do with the explicit adult  DVD, only God knows.

Furthermore, Dr Masocha last year at Couples Conference in October 2012 decided to teach women how to clean themselves on certain body parts that I cant mention, and went as far as to share how he was proud his stepdaughters were "clean girls"  and he even knew both of them used certain feminine hygiene products for personal care. He also instructed husbands and wives to "testify" in front of the whole church what they did in their bedrooms the previous night. To be honest when I was in Agape, what happened at Couples Conferences always felt wrong, but I was caught up in the frenzy and was convinced it was the anointing which was on Dr Masocha that allowed him do and teach things that were considered abnormal and inappropriate. I was compelled to write about this because as unbelievable as it sounds, it has to be told. The word of God says works of darkness has to be exposed so that the whole world can see that their works are evil.  This is the fruit of Agape. You decide whether it is good or bad fruit. If there is nothing to be ashamed of, then Dr Masocha and his children should be openly proud of the annual Couples Conferences and what really goes on there.

With that I leave you with an anonymous comment posted today on this blog. Some readers who have been through the same ordeal as mine and many other women may find comfort in reading this comment. In the mean time Dr Masocha has left the country and is currently in UGANDA.

ANONYMOUS COMMENT

Others may find this useful. My family has started the healing process following the sexual abuse she went through from walter masocha. Here is the response I received from NSPCC:
Thank you for your email that we have received today, 01.11.13. I am very sorry to hear that your wife has been subject to traumatic abuse.
There are two aspects of the situation that I would like to advise you on; firstly how you can report the abuse and secondly how you and your wife can access support.
I would strongly advise that the matter is referred to the Police for further investigation. I appreciate that your family may feel scared to do this however I am concerned that given the man’s position he may be continuing to abuse other children as well as posing a risk to your own family. You can contact the Police directly by going into a local Police station or telephoning their non-emergency telephone number 101.
Alternatively, the NSPCC can share the information with the Police and they would contact you to follow up with their enquiries. In order to do so, we would need the following information:
· The name, age, ethnic origin and address of the abuser.
· The details for the Church that he is leader of.
· Details for your wife and yourself, including names, dates of birth, ethnic origin, address and contact telephone number.
· Details of any other people who you are aware have been abused by this man.
· Details of any other children this man is in contact with. Does he have children of his own?
Understandably you may not know all this information; however, it would be of great assistance if you could forward as much detail as possible; you may find this easier to do by telephoning the NSPCC Helpline on our 24 hour free phone number 0808 800 5000 or you can reply to this email.
There are a number of organisations that can support your wife and family in managing emotionally with the abuse:
- NAPAC (National Association of People Abused in Childhood) offer support and advice to adult survivors of any type of abuse via their Helpline 0800 085 3330 or www.napac.org.uk
- Rape Crisis provide information, support and counselling for victims of rape and sexual violence. You can contact them on 0808 802 9999 or www.rapecrisis.org.uk
- Relate offer counselling, mediation and advice on family relationships. You can contact them on 0300 100 1234 or www.relate.org.uk
- Your G.P. will also be able to advise on what NHS service are available to you in your local area.
I hope that you find this information useful, please do not hesitate to contact us with the identifying information about the man or with any other queries. If you ever believe a child to be at immediate risk of harm please contact the Police on 999.
Kind Regards
Lise McLean
NSPCC Helpline Practitioner


Thank you for taking the time to contact the NSPCC with your concerns. I hope you have found contacting the Helpline useful.
The NSPCC values service feedback and if you have any comments the NSPCC would be happy to hear them. Please send any comments by return email.

Below is a picture of me and my former friend who is now the best friend of my husband's sister  Patience at the Couples Conference last year. Dr Masocha is in the background. We were sitting closer to him because we were up in the so called hierarchy in the Church as both our husbands were "DJs" at the event. . 

So AGAPE want the blog taken down...

Readers of HE WAS MY DADDY blog, Agape For All Nations Ministries International has finally decided to take this to the authorities, my blog I mean. They have done the UNTHINKABLE, or should I say thinkable. I personally was waiting for this one! I knew that's where it was all heading. An official complaint has now been made to the police by AGAPE, in their own words, (we are not very happy about things being posted online about us),  of course you are not very happy Agape, its not very nice having your evil deeds exposed to the world is it? I assume they were referring to the Agape 666 blog post.  What the..... Is this some kinda sick joke? And before I thought it couldn't get any worse, whilst they were at it, making the complaint I mean, AGAPE  also asked the police to....listen to this one, " Come and check on me because they (AGAPE) were seriously concerned about my welfare and that of my children!"  How dare you Agape? How dare you claim you give a monkeys about my babies, these are the children you want put in foster care, despite having both their parents alive and well. Listen AGAPE FOR ALL NATIONS MINISTRIES INTERNATIONAL, I am sick and tired of your bullshit Agape. Utter bullshit. Do you hear me? I am a fighter, and I will never give up fighting the institution that worked so hard to destroy my life and that of my three babies. I refuse to be bullied by you anymore, guess what, Jean aint the naïve girl you used to know. You will never shut me up. I know the law in and out, I did my fair share of research, you can't sue me because the joke will be on you. What about the garbage you post everyday online about me? Did I report you? The lies you are spreading about me all over the internet, did I report you? No I did not. You have an entire official website dedicated to savaging my reputation ruthlessly. As a Church that claims a mission statement of showing God's love to all people despite age, race, gender or sexual orientation bla bla bla you have failed miserably to stick to your own mission statement. You don't even believe in your own word. You have shown no love or mercy on me as you savage me like a pack of hungry online wolves. If there is anyone who should be sued its you AGAPE. You have an official statement on Nehanda Radio that reports you claim I am mentally unwell, so be very careful AGAPE because the authorities continue to find these false allegations of me very disturbing, that you continue to label me insane when they cant see it.  Agape I think its time to drop the "Jean is crazy" card, okay you made your point alright, but its getting a bit lame now. Your bullying tactics are becoming more and more transparent, and your game is drawing to a close. 

Guess what the police saw through your little scheme. And as far as they are concerned there is no case. They said, "basically Agape is not happy about things being posted about them, yet they are happy to post things about you". I mean hello, you have a blog dedicated to me and a number of websites have quoted your abuse. God I just love the Police. They actually asked me if I have reported Dr Masocha and the church to the police for the abuse and I said a resounding YES. I also told them to go and read the Agape blog. I have also contacted British human rights activists who are scrutinizing your blog. Just thought would mention it to you Agape.  I am telling you this Agape, this blog is not going away, I am prepared to go to Court with you Agape For All Nations Ministries International and you also Dr Walter Masocha. You will not get away with abusing me. You do not treat another human being like a dog and think you can get away with it. You treated me like an animal, and you blame me for retaliating. This is just the beginning, like Simba in the Lion King, (my favourite film by the way) you thought you would get rid of me and steal my pride, but I have come back fighting for what is rightfully mine. The real Lion King lives in me, and He has given me power to overcome. I refuse your cruel abuse. 

I leave you readers with this comment by JA MAN posted today. It was so accurate and anonymous posters are calling for it to be made a post. God bless you JA MAN, your comment is the best  on this blog so far (probably because you know the people at hand personally). I applaud you for your honesty. 

COMMENT FROM JA MAN

I want to tell you guys something very real here so please take time. This whole Agape thing is just people being used by a clever person to better his life. there is no church here my friends, it is on the border of being a cult and a scheme. Usually in a cult, the leader actually believes his own bullshit and will die with his sheep but i will tell you this as a fact for free, Masocha will not lose sleep for any of you unless of something brave like what Jean is doing.

I know all these people in these satellite branches and just cannot believe it. lol so one reads a couple of books in the bible and thinks they know the bible to the point of being a pastor. Gertrude the so called pastor, this god u represent and speak highly of, is he proud of such behavior you have shown in all this matter. Theology is deep and needs humble people to understand it. zvako zvekuverenga verse uri ku shift womukira kuwudza vanhu zviroto zvako is not being a pastor mate. Murikutambiswa bhora risina mweya mese. How can you have a church with 7 people and 5 of them are ur family and the other 2 are your friends. What world do u live in Getti. U have all helped to destroy shingi's marriage being stupid. He has 3 kids who he watched grow and loved now u have messed up his head and he is caught in a situation. This is not church. Far from it. very very far from it!

Your sister inlaw tells you she has been abused and even comes clean about it how she was being manipulated. Tells her husband and you all call her demonic. STUPID people mese makadaro. someone cries to u as a pastor for help and support. a woman on-top of it and you castigate her. I mean really. You actually think u are the sane one right. lol Crow calling raven black! wake up all of u. your family has been destroyed by Masocha and instead of being civil and showing solidarity together, u behave like monkeys. Munonyadzisa mese. I wish i didnt know you all. Iwe shingi, muka uzviverengere bible wega unzwe kuti mwari vanoti kudii nesituation yako. Any man would cause murder at the mere gossip of anyone touching his woman but somehow u found it ok. Magarisa muEngland makukanganwa hunhu tsano. I would have gone to whoop that pastor so bad kana midzimu yake yaimu tiza ipapo. im sure u are a good man shingi but at the moment mate, the people around u r destroying you and not helping. save yourself mate before winter comes. All these people have their kids and families. Vanorara vachiguta vana vachi fara. Ko vako???????

That whole church is made up of mental health nurses, lol. I think since u are all so educated and good at diagnosing others to have mental health problems, you should read and do a research piece on cults. What they are, how they start and how they behave. let us know what u come up with. Oh and whilst you are researching, look up the meaning of what it is to be brain washed or being in a trans.

For me this whole issue is not even about Masocha, well maybe to an extent, But it is about shingi's family. they are using God's platform to get rid of Jean. All other efforts had failed and Shingi had stuck to his guns supporting his wife and they found gospel as a tool to exercsise a long overdue extradition. This is all such a shame more for shingi than anyone else. WAKE UP BLAZ, VANHU VARI KUKU URAYA UCHIFAMBA!!!!!!

Below is a picture of my husband and I on my 28th birthday celebration in the beautiful 3 bedroom detached house that we have owned for the last 10 years. We worked hard to make the house a beautiful place for our children.