Agape Board Member a convicted paedophile

Dear readers, in June 2007 in Scotland, Dr Masocha founded Agape For All Nations Ministries. He started his Church with one of his most faithful followers today Maxwell Nyakutya, who  two months before Agape started on April 12  2007, was convicted of child sex abuse and put on the child sex offender register in Scotland and banned from teaching. Today he does not have a job. Surely there is a reason why people are put on the sex offender register and banned from ever working with children, Dr Masocha is a well learned educated man with several doctorates, him more than anyone should know the severe implications being a convicted paedophile. Or maybe he turns a blind eye because its too close to home for him.

Board Member Maxwell Nyakutya, a convicted paedophile of Scotland is one of the most trusted and well respected man in Agape today. He molested a sleeping school girl on a bus a few months before he was ordained and appointed Board Member in Agape, Dr Masocha well knowing that this man was a convicted paedophile.  This shocking gut wrenching information only came to light to me yesterday, and if I had known, I would have never set my foot in Agape, I have a daughter. I left her in the hands of Church leaders on a lot of occasions. I feel sick. I also want you to know, that the sexual crimes of Board Member Maxwell Nyakutya, are actually identical to the reported sexual crimes of Dr Masocha. He  "touched" this child inappropriately, and the court of law found him not only guilty, but a risk to the public and children. Now I want to make a new report to police, and ask why a man who is considered a risk to children, so much he is put on the sex offender register and banned from teaching can be allowed to take the highest position in a church 2 months after he is convicted and left alone with children? Maxwell Nyakutya likes working with children and teaching them his new songs. I don't know, but something, my own instincts tells me this is beyond scary, and any normal Agape member with a girl child should be concerned.

I have had a lot of personal contact with Maxwell Nyakutya and all this time I never knew he was a convicted paedophile. I first had a personal encounter with him in November 2011 at Southport Official launch were he slept and stayed at Pastor Gertrude Musuka's house where my children were playing unsupervised. That day I left my three children there. He was actually meant to sleep in our house, but we had no room for such a special church official as we had most of the third class Agape citizens staying at our house. I feel sick. Disgusted. I want you to know also that my children are no longer allowed to go anywhere near Agape by Social Services, because they deem Agape a dangerous and unhealthy environment for children (based on the Ambulance incident).

This child molester Maxwell Nyakutya was also there during the ambulance incident. Yes he was very present at Wigan the day Pastor Gertrude made the infamous call. I actually went to him as he was a visiting special guest that day, he had come all the way from Scotland. I told him they had called an ambulance on me, and as a leader I thought he would do something, he replied, "Excuse me, I have a train to catch, I don't want to be involved in this" and he left to catch his train, leaving me to the vultures of Agape.

Paedophile Maxwell Nyakutya is the man behind the song, THE HIGH COMMISIONER, the national Agape anthem that is sung in every worship service in Agape as a must. The song narrates how Dr Masocha received the AGAPE VISION in June 2007. In Agape no one dares sing or worship God without singing the song penned by the Paedophile first! People are actually told off and spiritually intimidated with scriptures if they don't sing the song, its not only a must, its a doctrine. In fact Dr Masocha is so obsessed with the Paedophile's song about himself he sings it all the time, as the whole congregation goes on their knees weeping worshiping him. The song is so reverenced and adored in Agape, once it starts playing or being sung, there is a certain atmosphere that emerges and everyone goes into a trans, often weeping and falling down, taking off jackets for Dr Masocha to walk on. This is the song that insinuates the idolising of Dr Masocha, where the man demands to be worshiped. I sense a demonic spirit associated with this song, now it all makes sense as the song was composed by a child sex abuser. I believe if there anything God hates, is a man who sexually abuses children. Its sick.

I want to know why Dr Masocha put a convicted paedophile in such a high position in Church, well knowing he was considered a risk to children. I often went to Cosyneuk House with my three children and Board Member Maxwell was always there, (since he doesn't go to work) and I left my children loitering and playing unsupervised in Dr Masocha's mansion with a paedophile on the loose. I am sorry, but this one I will report and make an official complaint. Sex offender Nyakutya is the head of Media department in Agape, and works with my husband very closely. I am compelled to believe that Maxwell Nyakutya has a history of molesting children, of course things like that don't just start from nowhere. After his conviction and career breakdown, AGAPE FOR ALL NATIONS MINISTRIES became his way out and he worked his way up the ladder by being the closest personal friend of Dr Masocha. In Agape, the Board Members are highest respected leaders, and they know all the secrets about the Church. Their committee is so private, no one is allowed to even know what is discussed in the Board Meetings.  I don't know what to say anymore, but if Maxwell Nyakutya, who is a convicted paedophile because he touched a child inappropriately, why is Dr Masocha walking free today for touching hundreds of women and young girls inappropriately through his controversial hugs, kisses and embraces. I will let you all be the jury on this one, I am sure there are more than 12 readers on this blog.

So AGAPE want the blog taken down...

Readers of HE WAS MY DADDY blog, Agape For All Nations Ministries International has finally decided to take this to the authorities, my blog I mean. They have done the UNTHINKABLE, or should I say thinkable. I personally was waiting for this one! I knew that's where it was all heading. An official complaint has now been made to the police by AGAPE, in their own words, (we are not very happy about things being posted online about us),  of course you are not very happy Agape, its not very nice having your evil deeds exposed to the world is it? I assume they were referring to the Agape 666 blog post.  What the..... Is this some kinda sick joke? And before I thought it couldn't get any worse, whilst they were at it, making the complaint I mean, AGAPE  also asked the police to....listen to this one, " Come and check on me because they (AGAPE) were seriously concerned about my welfare and that of my children!"  How dare you Agape? How dare you claim you give a monkeys about my babies, these are the children you want put in foster care, despite having both their parents alive and well. Listen AGAPE FOR ALL NATIONS MINISTRIES INTERNATIONAL, I am sick and tired of your bullshit Agape. Utter bullshit. Do you hear me? I am a fighter, and I will never give up fighting the institution that worked so hard to destroy my life and that of my three babies. I refuse to be bullied by you anymore, guess what, Jean aint the naïve girl you used to know. You will never shut me up. I know the law in and out, I did my fair share of research, you can't sue me because the joke will be on you. What about the garbage you post everyday online about me? Did I report you? The lies you are spreading about me all over the internet, did I report you? No I did not. You have an entire official website dedicated to savaging my reputation ruthlessly. As a Church that claims a mission statement of showing God's love to all people despite age, race, gender or sexual orientation bla bla bla you have failed miserably to stick to your own mission statement. You don't even believe in your own word. You have shown no love or mercy on me as you savage me like a pack of hungry online wolves. If there is anyone who should be sued its you AGAPE. You have an official statement on Nehanda Radio that reports you claim I am mentally unwell, so be very careful AGAPE because the authorities continue to find these false allegations of me very disturbing, that you continue to label me insane when they cant see it.  Agape I think its time to drop the "Jean is crazy" card, okay you made your point alright, but its getting a bit lame now. Your bullying tactics are becoming more and more transparent, and your game is drawing to a close. 

Guess what the police saw through your little scheme. And as far as they are concerned there is no case. They said, "basically Agape is not happy about things being posted about them, yet they are happy to post things about you". I mean hello, you have a blog dedicated to me and a number of websites have quoted your abuse. God I just love the Police. They actually asked me if I have reported Dr Masocha and the church to the police for the abuse and I said a resounding YES. I also told them to go and read the Agape blog. I have also contacted British human rights activists who are scrutinizing your blog. Just thought would mention it to you Agape.  I am telling you this Agape, this blog is not going away, I am prepared to go to Court with you Agape For All Nations Ministries International and you also Dr Walter Masocha. You will not get away with abusing me. You do not treat another human being like a dog and think you can get away with it. You treated me like an animal, and you blame me for retaliating. This is just the beginning, like Simba in the Lion King, (my favourite film by the way) you thought you would get rid of me and steal my pride, but I have come back fighting for what is rightfully mine. The real Lion King lives in me, and He has given me power to overcome. I refuse your cruel abuse. 

I leave you readers with this comment by JA MAN posted today. It was so accurate and anonymous posters are calling for it to be made a post. God bless you JA MAN, your comment is the best  on this blog so far (probably because you know the people at hand personally). I applaud you for your honesty. 

COMMENT FROM JA MAN

I want to tell you guys something very real here so please take time. This whole Agape thing is just people being used by a clever person to better his life. there is no church here my friends, it is on the border of being a cult and a scheme. Usually in a cult, the leader actually believes his own bullshit and will die with his sheep but i will tell you this as a fact for free, Masocha will not lose sleep for any of you unless of something brave like what Jean is doing.

I know all these people in these satellite branches and just cannot believe it. lol so one reads a couple of books in the bible and thinks they know the bible to the point of being a pastor. Gertrude the so called pastor, this god u represent and speak highly of, is he proud of such behavior you have shown in all this matter. Theology is deep and needs humble people to understand it. zvako zvekuverenga verse uri ku shift womukira kuwudza vanhu zviroto zvako is not being a pastor mate. Murikutambiswa bhora risina mweya mese. How can you have a church with 7 people and 5 of them are ur family and the other 2 are your friends. What world do u live in Getti. U have all helped to destroy shingi's marriage being stupid. He has 3 kids who he watched grow and loved now u have messed up his head and he is caught in a situation. This is not church. Far from it. very very far from it!

Your sister inlaw tells you she has been abused and even comes clean about it how she was being manipulated. Tells her husband and you all call her demonic. STUPID people mese makadaro. someone cries to u as a pastor for help and support. a woman on-top of it and you castigate her. I mean really. You actually think u are the sane one right. lol Crow calling raven black! wake up all of u. your family has been destroyed by Masocha and instead of being civil and showing solidarity together, u behave like monkeys. Munonyadzisa mese. I wish i didnt know you all. Iwe shingi, muka uzviverengere bible wega unzwe kuti mwari vanoti kudii nesituation yako. Any man would cause murder at the mere gossip of anyone touching his woman but somehow u found it ok. Magarisa muEngland makukanganwa hunhu tsano. I would have gone to whoop that pastor so bad kana midzimu yake yaimu tiza ipapo. im sure u are a good man shingi but at the moment mate, the people around u r destroying you and not helping. save yourself mate before winter comes. All these people have their kids and families. Vanorara vachiguta vana vachi fara. Ko vako???????

That whole church is made up of mental health nurses, lol. I think since u are all so educated and good at diagnosing others to have mental health problems, you should read and do a research piece on cults. What they are, how they start and how they behave. let us know what u come up with. Oh and whilst you are researching, look up the meaning of what it is to be brain washed or being in a trans.

For me this whole issue is not even about Masocha, well maybe to an extent, But it is about shingi's family. they are using God's platform to get rid of Jean. All other efforts had failed and Shingi had stuck to his guns supporting his wife and they found gospel as a tool to exercsise a long overdue extradition. This is all such a shame more for shingi than anyone else. WAKE UP BLAZ, VANHU VARI KUKU URAYA UCHIFAMBA!!!!!!

Below is a picture of my husband and I on my 28th birthday celebration in the beautiful 3 bedroom detached house that we have owned for the last 10 years. We worked hard to make the house a beautiful place for our children.



The Agape 666 Satellites...

I want to give you a background about the Church I used to worship in for the last two years led by Pastor Gertrude Musuka and Pastor Langton Mburayi. For those who may be too shocked and think this information is false, please do your own research and you will find the information below to be true. The Church which Pastor Gertrude leads constitutes of 3 branches, (Towns/ Satellites), Liverpool, Southport, and Wigan. All 3 branches together have a total of 18 members. Yes 18 members. Each Satellite has total of 6 members. Which makes the 666 satellites. You do the maths there.  The Church is very dysfunctional to say the least and most members have left because of bullying and victimisation. People were always crying, even Dr Masocha once told me that there is a "bad spirit" in Liverpool that causes people to hate each other and fight. So many times Dr Masocha used to come and cry in front of the church for his children to be good Daddy's children and stop the fighting. Ladies and Gentlemen I hereby present to you Wigan, Liverpool and Southport Satellites.

Wigan Satellite (WE-GAIN)

It has a total of 6 members, (including my husband)
The leader of Wigan, called Attache/ Coordinator  recently DIVORCED his wife of 10 years and the mother of his 2 young children and married an older single woman Dr Masocha chose for him. He refuses to see his 2 young children and does not have any contact with them. He kicked his wife and mother of his children out of her house and moved the new wife in. Dr Masocha blessed the new marriage and appointed them Attaches/ Elders of Wigan Branch. Most of the Zimbabwean Community in Wigan feel for and sympathise with the wife who was divorced and for that reason refuse to have anything to do with Agape Wigan. Last year Christmas time the new wife Joy started phoning members of Wigan telling them to stay  away from my house and not to be my friend because I was demon possessed and a promiscuous woman, she claimed Pastor Gertrude had instructed her to warn new members about the dangers of being my friend. I told Dr Masocha about the bullying and he did nothing about it.

The second couple in Wigan, a young couple in their mid twenties recently joined Agape about a year ago. Ruvimbo and Odingo Matorera. We started Wigan together. The husband cheated on the wife so much she attempted suicide a number of times, (SHE WROTE ALL THIS IN HER OWN WORDS IN THE FIRST EDITION OF THE AGAPE MAGAZINE) the wife also claimed abuse from her mother in law and called me several times crying and saying she wanted to die. I informed Dr Masocha as I was always worried about her and he told me to stop "playing with her or being her friend" because she had bad spirits on her and would pass them on to me if I allowed her in my house in that state, (suicide). Both of them husband and wife recently dropped from University and are now concentrating on doing, God's work in Wigan as they sincerely believe one day Dr Masocha will make them Commissioners/ Bishops and to them that means more than a career. The wife who was once my closest friend is now one of my worst enemies to date, and as I speak she spends most of her days now castigating me and pouring her hatred for me on this blog and other websites. Most of the abusive comments here are coming from her. In August 2013 she posted on a forum on Facebook that I was a liar and I tried to seduce Dr Masocha in front of the entire Church. I have the evidence of her Facebook post. I confronted her over the Facebook post in which she quickly apologised and said there was no justification for what she did. I have the evidence of the apology on my whatsapp. She then took her apology back a month ago and said she posted on Facebook about me to defend her Daddy, Dr Masocha. She created several accounts on Facebook in bid to tarnish my name. She continues with this behaviour today. She was unfortunately not invited to Sandra's wedding, despite crying buckets of tears and sending a heart felt text message to Dr Masocha begging him to reconsider and give her a last minute token of favour of a wedding invite the night before the wedding. She did sent me the emotional long text before sending it Dr Masocha. However as expected, Dr Masocha replied with a , "praying for you my beloved daughter" but still the wedding invite was painfully denied.

The other member of Wigan is a young woman in her mid twenties, since joining Agape Dr Masocha advised her to dump her long time boyfriend and she has since dropped out of University to concentrate on doing God's work in Wigan.  She too was unfortunately not invited to the Agape Royal Wedding.

Then there is my husband who as you know has chosen to follow Agape and leave his wife and children in the deep end, the rest you know it...But can I just say last year my husband was offered a lucrative post as a manager of a big company and share holder that offered a company car in a beautiful town of Derbyshire and turned it down without even telling me because HE WANTED TO DO THE WORK OF GOD IN WIGAN SATELLITE. Believe it or not. When I found out months later I was heartbroken.  I hope you can see a pattern here dear reader. If it wasn't for Agape today I would be living comfortably with my husband in Derbyshire in probably a 4 bedroom detached property with a big garden and playroom. I know it. It really hurts. There is a spirit of poverty in Agape. My husband has since ceased to provide financially for the upkeep of his children despite contributing large amounts of money towards Wigan Launch that took place last weekend. Dr Masocha if you are reading this blog, please release my husband from ministry and ask him to provide for the children as he has a decent job and salary. He listens to everything you say. The word of God says if any man does not provide for his own family he has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever, 1 Tim 5:8.

These are the people who worship in what is known as WIGAN SATELLITE, which was dubbed WE-GAIN SATELITE by Dr Masocha. How ironic that he calls it We-gain. As far as I am concerned everyone in this satellite has lost a lot, (LOST WIVES, LOST KIDS, LOST UNIVERSITIES, LOST JOB OFFERS) apart from the woman who stole someone's husband and house, she is the only one I know who has gained something from Agape, which is actually not hers. How a woman can move into someone's bedroom is beyond me, and have an Archbishop sanction that is shocking. 


Liverpool Satellite (LOVE-POOL)

It has a total of 6 members.
It has 3 leaders, one Elder and two Board Members, all three are DIVORCEES.
The Board Member  is a man who refers to himself as  Doctor even though he has not yet graduated. He DIVORCED his wife of years and married a single mum. They are the ones who are now in charge of organising the annual couples conferences. The irony of it. The Board  Member new wife was one of the people first in line to testify to the Paramedics during the Ambulance incident and she claimed I was mentally unwell and in urgent need of sectioning. She works in Wigan as a mental health community nurse. The husband who calls himself a Doctor  exactly a week after the ambulance incident, he was so angry I was not sectioned that he...please read this carefully. DR BOARD MEMBER JULIUS GAYAKAYA CALLED MY FAMILY MEMBERS (I DONT KNOW WHERE HE GOT THE NUMBER FROM)AND INFORMED THEM THAT HE WAS A SOCIAL WORKER AND HE WANTED TO REPORT ME SO THAT MY CHILDREN WOULD BE TAKEN INTO CARE. HE SAID THE CHURCH HAD FAILED TO "DEAL" WITH ME AND THEY WERE NOW HANDING ME OVER TO MY FMILY SO THAT THEY CAN TAKE ME TO HOSPITAL FOR A MENTAL HEALTH ASSESSMENT. HE CLAIMED IT WAS A MYSTERY THE AMBULANCE DID NOT SECTION ME THAT DAY. HE SAID AS A SOCIAL WORKER HE COULD ONLY HOLD ON FOR SO LONG BEFORE HE COULD GET MY KIDS TAKEN INTO CARE. Dr Board Member claimed he was instructed by Dr Masocha to phone my family and "hand me over" as Church could not deal with me anymore. Envoy Muchi Hove, who is the only full time paid Pastor in Agape did confirm that the phone call by "Dr" Board Member was indeed sanctioned by Dr Masocha who was away on a summer holiday in Spain at that time. Dr Masoch sent me this text message on the18th of July 2013 after I confronted him about the Mr Gayakaya phone call.

Text Message from "Daddy"



 Just keep applying what we agreed on Tuesday mwanangu.

 The fruit of the Spirit, this is the time to demonstrate it.

Tell your brothers that I certainly have not failed to

 deal with the matter, as you know. You know how far we have come.

 Forgive BM Gayakaya if you were upset that he called your family.

Just try be a peacemaker.

 Remember the teachings.

Apply the teachings. I know it's a difficult situation,

but pls be still and know He is God.

 Dont say or do anything till I come back.

Unfortunately I cannot take or make calls

 due to the exhorbitant roaming charges.

Praying for you and the family at this difficult time.

Zvichapfuura izvi mwanangu, kana ukateerera mashoko angu.

 I shall spk 2 u wen I get back, obviously.

You know Daddy cares. Xxxx

 

 Please note I never heard from "daddy"  after his return from the Spanish holiday even though he knew I had fled my matrimonial home and church...

The other leader is a man who just recently DIVORCED his wife of over 20 years  a few months back. The wife has since  left the Church. He is the man who is leading Liverpool branch at the moment. I find this very disturbing. Again Dr Masocha has done nothing to reconcile this couple.

The rest of the members, 3 women are single mothers who are being told their husbands to be are in Agape somewhere and if they are faithful in paying the little money they have to the Church, God will give them husbands.
Two years ago there was an incident at the Liverpool Church where the leaders called 999 and called for the Police to come and arrest a Church member who had protested the leadership structure. Most members then left the church and now there remains 6 members in Liverpool. Agape Liverpool is also well known for fighting, gossiping and backbiting.
Dr Masocha called it the Lovepool Satellite meaning a church of unconditional love but eish personally I have never seen so much hatred in a church.


Southport Satellite, (GOOD NEWS)

It has a total of 6 members.
The first member is a young woman in her mid twenties called Patience Musuka  and is due to be married in May 2014 to an Agape member . The marriage was arranged by Dr Masocha. Oh she is my sister in law by the way who bullied me so much she made my life a living hell. She is the young sister of Pastor Gertrude.  In my two years in Agape she refused to talk me, look me in the eye or even greet me especially in public (church). She never set feet in my house for 5 years. She last set foot in my house a week after I gave birth to my third child 5 years ago, despite living half and hour away. She never acknowledged my 3 children as her niece and nephews and would not look at them or talk to them. The day she was customarily married in May I cooked most of the food at the ceremony and she and her family bullied me (they refused to talk to me at the ceremony)so much I went outside and cried  and my husband's older brother (who does not talk to me) walked past me as I wept sitting outside, which resulted in my husband pleading with the family to just accept me at least for the food I had cooked that day.

The second member of Agape is my mother in law. I will respect her and say nothing at all.

The third and fourth members are the Pastors of course. Who are my sister in law and brother in law. Pastor Gertrude's husband was a well known womaniser two years ago who confessed to open threesomes in front of the entire Church and thanked God it was a mystery he escaped the deadly HIV virus yet today my husband's family and the Church aim to paint me as a woman with a colourful past.

The fifth and sixth members are a couple (Agape Youth Advisers) Roy and Felistas Mudzingwa Mapfumo I would rather not talk about, too painful to write about. Have you ever had a friend you loved so much and have her snatched away from you by...ummm your own sister in law. Yep it happened to me. The wife used to be my best friend I shared all my secrets with until she was convinced by my husband's family mainly Pastor Gertrude to never talk to me and stop being my friend. She is now therefor the Best Friend Forever (BFF) of Agape member number 1, the one who's getting married in May, my sister in law I mean...

Pastor Gertrude managed to convince the whole of Southport, Wigan and Liverpool 666 Satellites not to be my friend or talk to me or be nice to me. She even told the leader of Wigan (The woman who broke someone's marriage) to phone around and warn everyone, especially new members not to be Jean's friend because she was "possessed" with evil spirits.  In fact anyone who dared befriend Jean was often castigated and bullied until they surrendered which resulted in me having no friends and being hated by almost the entire area. I complained and cried to Dr Masocha over and over, about my mistreatment in Pastor Gertrude's branch (have emails to prove it), and Dr Masocha often told me it was because a "Prophet was without honour in their own hometown" and I was his special "baby girl". He said I should not take notice because they were all jealous of my talents and I was destined for higher success and he did nothing to stop the bullying. He even advised me to never go to Gertrude as my Pastor but to go directly to him because he understood the conflicts.

Dr Masocha called Southport Satellite  the good news Satellite, but I just used to get bad news after bad news after bad news each time I was there...


Readers this is Agape For All Nations Ministries in what they call AREA 7 where DIVORCE rates are rampant and the leader of the Church is always somewhat involved. This is the 666 Branch that bullied me senseless and left me cold in the gutter with my 3 children. Whether this is a true Church of God or not, you should be able to discern from the information provided which is 100% accurate.

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Below is Pastor Gertrude ministering at Southport Satellite, you can tell the place looks empty.



Below is a picture of my husband and I with some Wigan Members during happier times.

Agape threat videos...

So you tube contacted me saying Agape For All Nations Ministries International contacted them regarding the threat videos uploaded and said the videos where infringing on Agape and all the rest of it. Eyes wide open and no am not kidding you. In other words Agape does not want any of their videos uploaded on U tube. Funny enough I totally understand, considering...
But wait a minute, the videos I uploaded were taken from my mobile phone. They are my property. I did not breach any copy write policy. How did I get them on my phone you may ask? On the 31st of July 2013 at 06:03 am  yes at 06: 03 in the morning I was woken up by a Whatsapp message from an Agape member by the name of Steward Kuzi. She had sent me the 2 threatening videos because I had chosen to say yes I was abused in Agape. I asked her immediately to stop sending me the threats. Yes the videos are of a threatening nature because they say cursed is anyone who will not listen to Walter or obey him. Alas. The power of intimidation. I was proper terrified at the time, hysterical and all. I really thought some serious disaster (man made or natural) but leaning more towards the man made disaster...was about to befall my little sorry rebellious self. I will let you ponder on that one reader. But for the record no "curse" has come to me yet, thank God...phew...sigh...I still see the goodness of God in my life considering.
Anyway, so after I asked Steward Kuzi to stop sending the threats, she sends me this Whatsapp message...
  "U have chosen this path, I will not tell u wat path to take but becoz I care for u like a sister God gave me if I see a lion about to eat u. All I can do is warn u. To move away from it, dats your choice to take.
Wen Saul was persuing David he was already rejected by God. Still David wud never touch him becoz he knew dat it was God who anointed him. is it the same David  who committed murder after adultery. Wat makes u think God has given u the rite to touch His anointed wen He did not give it to David. Take heed while u can. Kuzi u can shout or slag, the the man of God, Touch not the anointed of God, u touching the apple of His eye. The word of God is true and it will not return to Him void but will accomplish wats its sent for"
After this last threat she then blocked me from her Whatsapp leaving me with the two videos Agape now says I have no right to share. I don't get it. They don't want the world to see these videos yet they sent them to threaten me. The irony of it all. So what am I supppsed to do with these videos sen't to me by Agape? Discard them and run away in a little corner and be scared as I wait for a curse to come my way because I supposedly "touched" a man of God. No I will not hide the videos. No. No. No. You sent them to me. I will but say these videos are already in the hands of the media, I don't know if Agape will be able to stop these videos from reaching the four corners of the world. Maybe Agape should warn their members not to send videos of a threatening nature ( or any other) to former members if they don't want their videos out in the public domain. One question for Agape, why are you ashamed of a video shot in Church in front of the entire congregation?

The Last Blog Post...maybe

For all the times he manipulated me to believe if I ate his left over food I would be blessed, I wrote this blog. For all the times he manipulated me to believe if I drink his left over water, I would be blessed, I wrote this. For all the times he wiped off his sweat and gave me the towels to use in prayer so that I would be blessed, I wrote this blog. Dear reader, I want you to know that I had a total of 15 face towels from "Daddy", the most he has ever given to anyone in the Church to date. Some women were jealous because they did not even have one towel, as Daddy only gave his "favourites" the special towels. For the times I joined the hundreds of women bowing before him crying. For the times he made me believe that his special "hugs" were anointed and just a hug from him would give me a breakthrough.For the times I spent on the phone pouring out my heart to him. For the hours I spent in prayer interceding for him and fasting for him. This is for the time I spent pouring all I had, giving my all to a ministry I called home, the paintings and the drawings, the dramas I did, the books I wrote, the Magazine I edited, for the songs I composed for Agape, for all that I wrote this blog. For all the women who have been betrayed and abused but are afraid and ashamed to come out and say it, I wrote this blog, because I am not afraid to bear the stigma that comes with speaking out about the unspoken abuse in the hands of men who take advantage of women like me.
For the day I saw an email of him talking bad about me to my husband. For all the days I cried to him that I was being bullied in Wigan and Liverpool Satellites and he told me they were jealous of me and I had to keep going.  For the days I cried to him that my marriage was collapsing  and needed his help and he did nothing. Yet behind the scenes it was him who was turning me against my husband and the other way round. For the wrong advice he always gave me to humiliate me. For instance it was him who told me to go to Church that fateful day I was abused and the ambulance called. I had told him I couldn't do it anymore at Wigan Satellite because of the bullying but he told me to go to Church anyway. A true child of God never misses church, he told me. Disobeying him was disobeying God you see. Thats what we were taught. For all the things he did to me that cost me my life, my happiness and my marriage, I wrote this blog.
Its worth the humiliation, its worth having the entire Agape Empire turn on me. Its worth all the malicious lies they are saying about me. Its worth it. Its worth it. Its worth it. Sometimes in life you have to give yourself away for justice to prevail.
So I have had my fair share of past mistakes. I have had my fair share of things I did I regret today. I have learnt from my past mistakes, and I believe every person in life is on that journey one way or the other. Even though I made mistakes in my life, it doesn't mean I can be abused and keep silent. Even if I had shot a rat, or even crushed an ant, which I never did, okay maybe I crushed a few ants here and there in my childhood, but I still don't deserve the treatment I received from Agape and continue to receive today. Agape is a greek word, meaning the unconditional love of God, sacrificial selfless Agape love. It is the highest of the four types of love in the Bible. Tell me dear reader, have you seen any of that Agape kind of love from any, even one child of Dr Masocha? Is this not the most crucial time for the ministry of Agape to demonstrate that unconditional Agape kind of love they swear by to a lost poor soul such as me?
On that note, as I finish off my blog. I leave you all with a poem I once wrote in 2011, on the 24th of November not long after my husband had led me to Agape. I presented the poem at the Women's Conference of Agape in February 2012. (The poem is on DVD as well as all the drama and acting I did for the ministry) Little did I know that one day God would use this poem to comfort me and heal me during the deepest darkest days I have ever walked on this earth. Allow me dear readers, to present to you the 5 Women in History who happen to be my greatest inspiration so much I wrote a poem about them.
COURAGE
I want to dedicate this poem to all women who have been abused and betrayed by the men who were meant to protect their future.
She was abused and used and she yearned for justice
She was a fighter and a woman of courage
She wanted to protect what was rightfully hers
She took a risk and claimed her destiny
Betrayed by the men who controlled her future
She fought for her right to believe in a loving God
By her bravery she preserved the tribe of Judah
Allow me dear reader, to re-introduce to you a woman of courage who never gave up, TAMAR
FAITH
I dedicate this poem to all women with past mistakes,  who may think their shameful past has the power to shape their future.
She was like Rapunzel, waiting for her escape
Up in a tower on the city walls of Jericho she sold her body
She was a strong willed woman, who believed her redemption was nigh
It only took one day
The day she had been waiting for
Two Hebrew spies touched her heart
Determined that her shameful past  would not shape her future
She professed her faith in an unseen God
She is a hero of faith in Hebrew 11 wall of faith
Allow me dear readers, to re-introduce to you a woman of great faith, RAHAB
VIRTUOUS
This poem is dedicated to all women who give up everything to follow their faith expecting nothing in return.
She was an outcast and foreigner
She gave up her family, her people, her future
To love a woman who had given her a husband
Better to her mother in law than ten sons
Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing
But a woman who fears the Lord she shall be praised
She gave herself away and God honoured her
Allow me dear readers, to re-introduce to you, a woman of virtue, RUTH
FORGIVEN
I dedicate this poem to all women who have made that one mistake that will mar their reputation for the rest of their lives.
She made a mistake that cost her her reputation
She committed adultery and deserved to be stoned to death
But her beauty captured the desires of a King
And her pain changed the heart of God
So she became the beloved wife of the King
The mother to the wisest man who ever lived
Honoured by her son, she became the first Queen Mother recorded in history
A woman who was never meant to wear royal robes
Allow me dear readers to re-introduce a woman of unmerited grace, BATHSHEBA
FAVOURED
I dedicated this poem to all women who have dreams which seem impossible to achieve, who are waiting for that one moment when the impossible will become a reality
She was a young unknown woman who yearned to see God
She watched and waited for her Messiah
Little did she know the prophet Isaiah had spoken about her
Unfraid to bear the stigma of pregnancy outside of wedlock
She boldly trusted what God had chosen for her
All eternity had been waiting for this moment
And God chose her
Allow me dear readers to re-introduce to you a woman after God's own heart, MARY
These are five ordinary women chosen by God. The only women to be mentioned in Mathew's genealogy of Christ
Each woman is an object lesson to us all about the working of Divine Grace
Five unlikely women who changed eternity
Allow me dear readers to re-introduce to you the five ordinary women who I will make friends with in heaven
TAMAR, RAHAB, RUTH, BATHSHEBA AND MARY
The five women in the lineage of Grace.
With that I close this blog, as a woman misunderstood, humiliated, betrayed and abused by people who were meant to protect me. I am just a woman broken in pursuit of justice, a woman without a voice, a woman silenced and mistreated,  but I will never stop fighting for my right not to be abused. I will never stop saying Dr Walter Masocha really was my "Daddy". Really he was, and it cost me my marriage, my dignity, and my I lost everything I worked so hard to build all my life, the beautiful place I once called home. By the way my blog was orange because orange is my favourite colour. Its a colour that represents passion, energy, happiness, enthusiasm, fascination, creativity, determination, attraction, success and stimulation. I will vow to fulfil the every aspect of the meaning of my favourite colour in my life.
Below are pictures of me and my husband at Scotland taken by Sandra in August 2012 . My husband was wearing a special T-Shirt "Daddy" had given him to wear when in need of God's favour. We had an important interview that day in Scotland hence my husband wore the T-Shirt.  I was carrying countless "towels" of Daddy's sweat in my handbag...All I know today is the towels were anointed, but they brought nothing but bad luck in my life.

   

After the story broke...

I want to thank Girl Child Network Founder Muzvare Princess Betty Makoni, an amazing humble hard working woman who has taken me under her wing at a time I so needed someone to just believe that this truly happened to me. I pray God blesses her more as she keeps the good fight of speaking for the UNSPOKEN. I admire her courage. No wonder she is one of the most influential human rights activists in the world.
Well since the story broke my husband called Princess Betty Makoni and expressed great concern over the events that has recently transpired. He said his main concern is his three children at this moment and he informed Muzvare Betty that he does not want be associated anymore with AGAPE FOR ALL NATIONS MINISTRIES INTERNATIONAL. He said he does not condone any abuse of women and he said he is deeply hurt by the abusive comments from Agape members that are directed at me and the page they have set up to abuse me. He informed Muzvare Betty that I was the mother of his children and he would never ever say anything negative about me to the media or online. He said it is not in his nature to do that. He expressed his deep regret over everything that has happened and he said his main priority now was the safety of me and the children and not Agape or Dr Walter Masocha.
I want to thank my husband for declaring that he no longer wants to be associated with the Church that destroyed him and his family.  He admitted that I suffered in the hands of the church. I personally have always believed my husband was actually a victim of Agape. Yes he should have protected me and stood up for me through all the abuse especially the ambulance incident but deep down I still believe he is a good man who was brainwashed by Dr Walter Masocha. My husband denied any claims of me being mentally unwell and he said I was very much of a sound mind, contrary to the official statement published by Agape on Nehanda radio that Jean is mentally unfit and the media should not be talking to me.
I know my God will fight for me. In this storm I refuse to be intimidated by Agape members. I shall continue to fight for my right to believe in a good and loving God, not the God of Agape.

 

 

 

On our private wedding ceremony arranged by Dr Masocha on 23 August 2013 were no family members were invited except my husband's older brother and the Agape church secretary who were witnesses. There were the only 2 guests at the wedding in Scotland Stirling.

The Ambulance...Part Two

I want you to know that before Agape I had always had problems with my in-laws, but never to the extent it got when I started attending Agape. The situation was always manageable, though I was aware they did not like me or accept me in the family, the situation was civil. My husband loved me dearly, and through it all he was always by my side. He was with me through thick and thin. He loved me when I was the best wife to him, he loved me when I was a bit naughty, he just loved me for who I was, and even today I will always be eternally grateful for the love he showered me with before Agape. Deep down I believe my husband is a good man, who if I can be honest I believe is a victim of Agape at the moment. I have fled my home, I was badly abused in Agape, but as I write this blog today my husband is still attending AGAPE FOR ALL NATIONS MINISTRIES INTERNATIONAL. He still believes with all his heart that Agape is a church of God, and he will stand by Dr Walter Masoch at whatever cost, including his three beautiful children and his wife. He believes he is making a sacrifice for God. He believes Dr Walter Masocha is his spiritual father.

I want you to know dear reader, that not once has Dr Masocha urged my husband to take a break from "Church" as things are clearly not right for him at home. Not once has Dr Walter Masocha asked my husband to do what he can do to win his family back and do whatever he can so that the family wont be torn apart. Dear reader, would you not think it would be the right thing for a Pastor or leader of the Church who care about his flock to excuse my husband from ministry when things have reached such a dreadful state. Right now what should come first, our three beautiful children or Agape? I will let you be the judge of that. Not only is my husband a faithful member of Agape, as I speak today he is busy financially preparing for the official launch of Wigan branch, where the ambulance incident happened and I was brutally abused. Yes, believe it or not, Dr Walter Masocha will be coming to Wigan to launch the branch that destroyed my family. My husband and 5 other members of that branch will be the ones financially sponsoring this "launch" on the 19th and 20th of October where they will hire an expensive building to host the event. They will also pay for the expenses of Dr Walter Masocha including an expensive apartment and buying him expensive bedding and driving him around Wigan during his stay. My own dear husband will be busy planning this event and spending a lot of money, and his children and wife are homeless.

I want you to know that before I fled the Church, in that branch we were only 7 members. Yes 7 members every Sunday, and it was our responsibility to financially pay for the rent of the hall we worshiped in, and it put a huge financial strain on our marriage. Now back to part two of the Ambulance story, after Daddy sent me an email at 2am discussing the Magazine work with me, he later called me that day and appeared to be utterly shocked by the behaviour of Pastor Gertrude and the rest of the church leaders. He told me that he had not condoned such evil behaviour and he sympathised with me. He told me that he was sorry that I was put through this by his pastor, and he comforted me. Shockingly days after this incident, I started to see that something was seriously wrong. Things were not adding up. Actually Dr Walter Masocha behind my back had been the one behind the whole thing. I reported Gertrude Musuka to the NMC for the ambulance incident, and they took it so seriously the launched a formal investigation into the case. Pastor Gertrude claims that Dr Masocha is the one who instigated the whole trap. She claims she was instructed by Dr Masocha over the phone to call the ambulance and have my children taken away and me sectioned. The authorities could not possibly do this. Funny how in Agape they claim I was acting like a "lunatic" that day, the paramedics arrived and surprisingly I was acting very calm, normal and composed. This is some of the report from the paramedics documented.

-church leaders and in laws called paramedics claiming Jean had "mental health issues" and need to be sectioned.
-There does not appear to be concerns for above stated, Jean calm, orientated, normal and not distressed.
-In laws state they will call police if Jean is not sectioned.
-Church members present at scene.
-It appears nothing more than a disagreement between family members.
-Children appear happy and healthy.
-Husband has left the scene to calm down, asked to return
-Husband states he does not have any concerns over Jean's mental health or well being.

This is only part of the report by paramedics. This is what happens when a woman like me decides to stand for her rights and fight injustice and victimisation. The week that followed the Ambulance incident my life became a living hell in my home. I was bombarded by phone calls from church members abusing me. The police got involved. And a week later I fled my matrimonial home with my 3 children, I was scared for my life. They were so angry that I had not been sectioned and I knew they could do anything. After I had fled my home, they tried contacting social services and alerted them that I was mentally unstable and could kill myself anytime. The police and social services took the claims seriously and that's when the whole truth started to unfold. They saw that I was obviously of a sound mind, and often complemented me for my writing skills and intelligence. The social services and the police saw that the "mental health" claims were nothing but bullying tactics and victimisation. If there was a time I was supposed to be seen as "mental" if I ever was, it was then. But the authorities supported me and sympathised with me. I thank God I have my children with me, and yes I am a very fit mother who simply adores her children. Also please note that the person whom Agape declared as mentally unstable is the same person who was in charge of several ministries that actually required a person of high intellect to carry out the work required. I will let you be the judge of my story...

The Book Publishing deal that went wrong

When I first met Dr Walter Masocha he promised me the world. He noticed I was a writer and he promised me that he personally was going to help me publish my books. I have writen a total of five books to date. Two children's books, one autobiography, one fantasy novel, and one non fiction book. I showed Dr Masocha my manuscripts and he loved my work and encouraged me to keep writing.
I gave him 3 of my manuscripts and he has possession of them today. He promised to get me a publisher. He told me that he was also writing his books and me and him would use the same publisher. He told me that he was now my manager and he wanted to manage me on the road to stardom. He said he was there to guide and protect me, and with his prayers and help I would definitely fulfil my dream to be an author.
He spoke prophecies in my life that I would write best selling books one day.  It was my dream, I had been writing books since I was 15. I had been looking for a publisher since I was 24. However on the 26th of April 2013 I recieved a phone call from Trafford Publishing and they were offering a very good publishing package for my fantasy fiction novel. Dr Masocha was in South Africa at that time. I contacted him straight away via email and he said he would talk to me about the book publishing upon his return from South Africa. Remember Dr Walter Masocha had told me he was now officially my manager.
So I wrote Trafford Publishing an email and explained to them that I was unable to do anything or make any decisions till my manager Dr Masocha was back from South Africa. Daddy had promised to publish my books, so for me this was it! The dream I had been waiting for. This was a self-publishing company, a very reputable one. They wanted me to publish the book straight away, but of course I had no money to.
So Dr Masocha came back from South Africa. My publishing consultant Melody called me before I spoke to Daddy. She kept putting so much pressure on me.
"I'm sorry I cant do anything without my manager's consent", I told her on the phone.
"Why Jean? This is a good publishing deal. Your book will be out in 3 months." She tried to convince me. "We have had best selling books and your fantasy novel sounds exciting".
" I know but I havent even got the money and I really have to speak to my manager first." I insisted.
She sounded dissapointed.  "Can I call your manager then?" She asked me. "I don't mean to disrespect you but some managers dont actually have your best interest at heart. Let me call him". She persisted.
I remember I was actually in Sandra's room. Sandra advised me  to give them Daddy's number. I did. I sent an email to Trafford Publishing and told my publisher to contact my manager Dr Masocha on my behalf to discuss any book publishing deals. She sent an email back straight away and told me she had called Dr Masocha. Please note I have the emails exchanged between Trafford Publishing and Dr Walter Masocha and I.
This was just the beginning of a heartbreak that would follow me. Daddy called me the next day, telling me that he had spoken to Melody my publishing consultant from Trafford Publishing. Little did Daddy know Melody had cced me the emails she had exchanged with Dr Masocha. Within the first phone call from Trafford Publishing that was meant to be about me and my book, surprisingly Dr Masocha then secured a publishing deal for HIMSELF with my publisher.
Melody did write me and told me that Dr Masocha was now publishing his book (Threshing Floor) with her. I want you to know dear reader that I am the one who found the publisher for Dr Masocha's recent published book. I have all the emails to prove it.
So Daddy called me and told me he had spoken to Melody. He said actually he was now thinking of publishing his long awaited book with her. Actually he told me he was at a prayer retreat and he was  there to finish off writing his book. So everything had actually happend at the right time. He was excited.
Now at this time Trafford Publishing had a special offer, you could publish two books for the price of one package! Daddy had some good news for me. He told me this was it! Our breakthrough. He called me everyday for a week. We discussed publishing and money and business. He said actually I was going to publish my book under his deal. He was going to pay for the publishing deal, and get another book published free. He said because he was now my manager, he could carry me on his back. I was ecstatic! My dream was coming true! And Daddy my hero was sorting it all out for me.
I did not speak to Melody for a week. Daddy was the one now dealing with Melody. I spoke to my husband about the book deal, he wasn't very happy that Dad would get the book published for me. He said it was not Daddy's duty to do that for me. Before God, as his daughter I should be the one paying for his book to be published. He said if he had money he would pay it for Dad. My husband told me to tell Dad that he personally was going to to pay for his wife's publishing contract.
"But Daddy told me he would do this for me. He promised me. I don't see anything wrong with that." I told my husband, crushed and confused.
"No baby, its not right to have your book published by Dad. God won't bless you. Lets do it ourselves." My husband convinced me.
So Daddy called me the next day. He had been acting a bit differently the previous day, I had to ask him if he was really really really gonna keep his promise and let me in on the book deal. He promised me.
So when he called me the next day I felt I had to tell him what my husband had said. I wasnt sure. I wanted him to say no we will keep our promise to each other. But to my hurt and pain, he changed his tune. He agreed 100% with my husband, and told me that he would not be publishing the book for me and that I was better off getting it published through my husband's funds. He said in-fact he had two books he wanted to publish and he was going to use the other offer for his own books.
I cried. I felt crushed. I felt betrayed. That was it for me. My husband did not discuss the book publishing deal with me again after that. Two weeks later he asked me, "Honey, how is it going with your book publishing deal?"
Upto today I can't believe what actually happend. One minute my book was getting published. The next minute everything fell apart before me. Daddy had even promised me we would launch our books together. He said it was going to be such an amazing event. Then the next minute he says actually I will go ahead and publish my book without you. It hurt that it was actually me who found the publisher for him, yet he dropped me like a hot bun. It left me hurt and confused. But I know in my heart my fantasy book will make it to the shelfs one day. My God is always faithful. To add to the wounds, on the 5th of June 2013 after he had dropped me from the book deal, he had the guts to send me this email, as I hard working daughter I spent a week drawing 40 images for his book, work that would take at least 4 month to do. I had blisters on my fingers. This was the week my marriage suffered the most, this was the week that led to the breakdown of my marriage, the week I was working for "Daddys" book.
Beloved daughter, Jean. Here is a list of the images I need for the book. Would you be able to draw these in a week? I shall call yoo to discuss the ones you gave me last time. Soo happy with them because it seems you have caught the idea. I would appreciate if you would work on this straight away, if you are able to, as I need these as a matter of utmost urgency. Images/pictures of threshing floor Images of 9 story grand house/mansion, with a lovely Penthouse at the top Wheat in field or wheat being harvested Someone working out in the gym/ lifting weights Threshing Floor of Araunah Ruth on the Threshing floor Image of winnowing process Image of the sifting process Dirty Dishes and Dirty Linen/clothes, plus clothes on drying line Hyenas, jackals and wolves Pregnant woman or women, Drunk person or ppl People gossipping Someone looking in the mirror Human mouth, showing teeth, tongue and lips Human tongue Images of people queueing (as in going for surgery) or waiting to be attended to Images of a Man of God or Prophet Images of someone being counselled one on one Traffic jam Images of murderer or someone knifing someone Someone in the toilet, either one person or a group of ppl Cracks on someone's feet (man'a) Someone having shower or just the shower sprinkling water Wrestling ring (either people or cartoons) Image of orange/fruit with segments (Fruit Of the Spirit) Heart or group of hearts, depicting LOVE Image symbolising clinic ie hospital or nurse etc etc Someone in Intensive Care Unit, depicting Surgery Images of wasps (mago) in a tree or bush (chigwenzi) Vehicle being attended to (to show/symbolise MOT) Green leaf from a shoot (to show Re-freshness) Someone on the Penthouse of the grand house, rejoicing, with beatiful views of beautiful scenery with mountains, lakes, sea etc etc in the distance Wheat bundle Beautiful Wheat seed in a container or in a hand etc Page full of wheat seed everywhere People rejoicing and having a party - some dancing, some praying, some jumping etc etc showing rejoicing It would be most helpful if you were able to SCAN and e-mail back the images as a WORD document to make it easy for me to cut and paste. Looking forward to hearing from you soonest. You know I love you, Daddy vako. xxxx
Below is a picture of my husband, Dr Masocha and I. The two men I ever trusted the most.

Did I ever tell you I am an artist?

I draw, I paint a bit and work with pen, which is my favourite art. I used to do the artwork for Agape. I once worked so hard for "daddy" illustrating for him I had blisters in my fingers. Oh well, here is some of my artwork I did during my time in Agape.

Before Agape

Dear reader
I want you to know how my life was like before Agape. Before I ever met Dr Walter Masocha.
My marriage wasn't perfect. My life wasn't perfect. But I was happy and so was my husband. We were college sweethearts. My husband was my rock. I was married to my husband for 10 years. He loved me. I mean he really adored me. He cherished me. So much that Dr Walter Masocha stood up in front of the entire congregation and declared me and my husband the "Love Birds" of Agape. I have it all on video.
Before Agape I was the apple of my husband's eye. He took me out on every birthday. Ever since I was 18 till I was 30 I would celebrate every birthday in style. From weekends away to birthday bashes I had it all. My husband treated me like a queen. He bought me flowers. He bought me clothes. He bought me chocolates. Expensive perfumes. He made me smile. He made me laugh. Before Agape I was my husband's princess.
But along came Dr Masocha. He made me do a lot of work. Threw me in the spotlight in Agape which prompted a lot of resentment and jealousy from the women in the Church. I became the editor and founder of AGAPE LIFE, the church magazine where I worked on the entire project on my own. Spending hundreds of hours and sleepless nights in top of doing Sandra's University work. So of course my marriage started to suffer. The attention I was getting from the Church was too much. I had to do "God's work". My marriage started to suffer.
Dr Masocha also put me in charge of a Performing Arts group I also founded and my time  was just consumed in working for the Church which I was never paid by the way. I wrote scripts. I managed people who had no experience in acting or performing, this was a new thing to the church and I had to teach them everything. It was so stressful.
As I prepared for a HUGE theatre performance, I worked entirely on my own to co-ordinate the Performing Arts group. I held rehearsals in my own house every weekend for a long time. Before I knew it I had people always in my house coming to stay, coming for rehearsals etc. Yes you can imagine the strain,  Agape took over my life and my marriage started to suffer.
Before Agape I lived in my house with my husband and children, after Agape my house became a house of endless church meetings, all night prayer meetings you name it. So yes my marriage became strained.
Before Agape my husband was a loving family man who was a doting father, but after Agape my husband derived all his energy in the church at the expense of his children and wife. Before Agape me and my husband solved all our problems on our own. We just talked to each other. But after Agape we had to go to Dr Masocha for every problem we had. He did nothing to help us resolve our marriage. He turned me and my husband against each other. Dr Masocha had absolute authority on our marriage. And before we knew it our beautiful home was broken.
The first picture is a picture of me and my darling husband in happier times. The second is a recent one taken on 1 June 2013 at Dr Masocha's stepdaughter's wedding were only the cream of Agape was invited and the rest of the church members were not invited.

The Ambulance...Part One

Sometimes in the midst of the most unimaginable pain, you will find some inner strength and courage somewhere within you. Inner strength you didn't even know you had. I have shed enough tears for a lifetime. Throw a brick at me, it wont kill me. I have been through it all.
Dear reader, I am going to share with you the most painful cruel abuse I ever suffered in this church. Can I share with you the worst day of my life? I'm going to. This blog would not have substance without the "Ambulance Story".
It was a beautiful Sunday afternoon in Wigan at Clifton Community Centre. Normal Sunday service. It was actually a Get Together. People crying as they sing about Walter etc. Church Pastors receiving hundreds of pounds worth of groceries brought by struggling church members. Yes that's part of the doctrine in Agape. Dr Walter Masocha rebukes  congregants who don't financially provide for their Envoys (Pastors). The congregation has to look after the leaders...buy them food, give them money and provide transport funds for them, that sort of thing.  Every week you are threatened with scriptures so that you are obliged to provide for the pastors! I also want you to know most people in the church are struggling financially without having the strain of being forced to look after the pastors. The single women and the widows are obliged to even do more financially, so that God will reward them with husbands ( anyway that's another blog post for another day).
Back to my story. So on this fateful day at Wigan, church had finished and people were eating, talking gossiping, backbiting, bullying etc, normal behaviour in Agape Church. I had just had enough. It was awful. The pastor bullied me so much. She hated me. Oh did I mention she is my husband's sister. Yes she is. Getrude Musuka. God willing I will sue this Agape Pastor for defamation of character. I have all the documents to prove it too. (In the mean time she's being investigated by the NMC for cruelty and abuse)
 Sometimes in life you just get to a point where you say enough is enough. What the heck!  I cant do this anymore. I am a human being and I deserve better. Basic human rights. Its not too much to ask right. I want to tell you that I was deprived human rights in Agape. I was stripped off my dignity as a woman and as a mother. I stood up to them, I dared to. A number of events had transpired before this day. I had been having marital problems with my husband due to the strain the church was putting in our lives. To add to the pain, two of my husband's sisters who are members of the church had been bullying me. I had always heard how they used to talk about me behind my back, much of it was driven by the jealousy and envy that I was now in a bit of hierarchy in the church and I was doing the Church Magazine and Performing Arts. I cried to Daddy so many times about my in-laws and how they bullied me and daddy always told me that they were jealous of me because I was talented and I had to stay strong. But the abuse from my in-laws intensified and I a day before the church service I heard my sister in law (who is a pastor of the church) on the phone to my husband advising him to leave me and walk out of the house. I also saw text messages from another sister in law to my husband's phone talking ill about me. Now I had evidence of their abuse. That very night my sister in law came to my house and lied to my face that she had not called my husband to discuss me. I confronted her at home and told her that I had heard everything. You should have seen the look on her face. At this point I knew the war was on. I knew she was now on a mission to plot revenge. The next day in church after service I told her I had had enough of her bullying. My husband was standing next to me. I couldn't do it anymore. To make matters worse my in-laws are the leaders of this church and they were ordained by Dr Masocha. Not only where they leaders, but they are the ones who dragged my husband to Agape, and my husband in turn dragged me there. In fact for me to ever be part of this Church its all down to the Agape Pastor called Gertrude Musuka. 

On Sunday 14th of July after Church I confronted her, the pastor Gertrude I mean. I had to. The bullying was just too much. It hurt because she was supposed to be my sister in law, looking after me.I told her I could not cope with the abuse and bullying anymore. She called me "mental". Well she always did that to me for some reason.  Gertrude is a mental health nurse by the way just for your own information. So she knows it all, especially about mental health. She then told my husband that I was mentally unwell and he should do "something". She had apparently done her assessment on me. My husband didn't do anything or should I say "something". So she and her mother in front of the whole church and my children did the unthinkable. I looked outside and saw an ambulance, everyone was starring. Fingers were pointing. The paramedics walked towards me, "Are you Jean?" They asked me, looking rather suspicious. I could see everyone was now listening. The atmosphere could be cut with a razor, not knife. "Yes I am Jean, is there a problem?" I asked in confusion. "Well we received a call,  they say you need an urgent mental health assessment and in need of sectioning". Even the paramedics where looking at me confused, because I was not acting in the way they expected. You know, I was calm, composed and looked rather shocked at the sudden turn of events. How I managed to stay so composed under such circumstances is beyond me. The "trap" was meant for me to "kick off". But to the Church leaders disappointment, Jean was the most composed woman that day, the tables obviously turned quicker than expected and guess who started kicking off! "Section her!" Take her away!" My mother in law and Pastor Gertrude were yelling. The scene was getting bigger. Every church member was now outside.

"Jean, come with us in the ambulance please". The paramedics said to me politely and sympathetically. Obviously this wasn't easy for them either.

"Mummy! Mummy!" I heard my daughter call out to me as I was taken away in the ambulance. It was the worst moment of my life. I will never forget my daughter's face that day. Even today she so remembers that day as if it was yesterday, and she knows aunty and grandma did that to her mummy. I couldn't cry. I couldn't give them the satisfaction, and no I did not kick off in anger. I did not sob. I did not yell. I just walked confidently to the ambulance, I almost heard  Jesus whisper to me that He was with me during this public walk of humiliation and He had done it too on his walk to Calvary, where no one stood by Him. This was a horror moment, but i composed myself. I couldn't understand the amount of hatred my own sister in law and mother in law had for me. The public humiliation. Wow.

I sat in that ambulance as the paramedics talked me through what had just happened. A nightmare on Elm Street I call it. Or a nightmare in Agape rather. The pastor of the church Gertrude had told them that I was an unfit mother. Living in poverty. In need of urgent sectioning. She told them to go home and inspect my house. Please note that on this day she had just received hundreds of pounds worth of groceries from the church members. Her car boot was overloaded with food from peoples sweat and blood, I have video footage to prove the food she received from the congregation that day, yet she wanted my children to be taken away from me because I was living in poverty as she claimed. These were not just any children, these are her nephews and niece, her own brother's children. She chose to tell the paramedics that I was poor and could not feed my children.

You probably wondering what happened next. Did I get sectioned under the mental health act? Of course not. The paramedics told me this was so wrong and an abuse of power. Defamation of character. Public humiliation. They could not believe this was a church to begin with. They sympathised with me and told me they could not possibly section me, simply because I was not mentally ill. They assessed my three children whom Gertrude called poor and malnourished, and found them to be very happy and healthy. So the situation got nasty. The ambulance was not going away with me! The paramedics were not sectioning me. Pastor Gertrude wanted me sectioned right away, so they started threatening the paramedics, Gertrude and the rest of the church leaders,  "If you don't section Jean, we will call the police." I know, you are thinking what the...

Yes they did carry out their threat against the paramedics, and  called 999. The police came, and you guessed right, they left the scene shocked as I was. This is Agape For All Nations Ministries International. This is all normal behaviour in Agape. The leaders of the church are always calling police, ambulances etc on congregants who say anything to oppose them. Everyone who doesn't believe in Agape is "mental" according to their little books of holiness. People have been sectioned before. But I thank God he fought for me on this fateful day. With the police and paramedics on my side, clearly seeing the serious nature of bullying and abuse in this church, they documented everything for me, and correctly and kindly gave me a copy that evidenced I had been cruelly abused that day.

Now afterwards I was crying, inconsolable. My husband had run away during the ambulance incident, no where to be found. Unprotected and vulnerable I tried ringing my "Daddy" so many times. I wanted to tell him what his leaders had done to  me, the public humiliation and bullying. But Daddy didn't pick his phone. At this point I still had all my trust in him, he was still my Daddy. I knew in my heart Daddy was gonna fix it all for me. Of course he would. He was my Daddy. He loved me. I was his special God given daughter. Once I told him all that had happened to me, I knew he would discipline his leaders and even maybe suspend Gertrude from a post as a pastor.  That night I cried myself to sleep, holding the document the paramedics had given me, reading it over and over again. Then at about 1am I was up, could not sleep. Tried calling my Daddy again, but,  he was not picking up. Then at around 2 am he send me an email, it read....
 
"Beloved daughter, Jean.
I have just finished going through the magazine. Been reading it almost an hour now. Very beautiful and colourful. Looking very professional too. As you might have expected, I have a few points to bring to your attention for your information and action before you go into print. I shall call you sometime tomorrow (well, later on today!) to discuss. God bless you my dear daughter for the good work you did, and continue to do, for the Lord. I trust that He shall reward you in due course. He always does! Praying for you right away, before I doze off. I am now quite exhausted, but God is my strength. Much love to you.
Daddy vako xxxx"

I want you to know dear reader, that Dr Masocha was fully aware of my anguish, public humiliation and pain of the ambulance incident when he sent me the above email at 2am on Monday 15th June 2013. But for some reason he chose to ignore my calls and texts at the point I ever needed him the most as my "father" and he chose to talk about the "work of God" I was doing for him. A Magazine. You be the judge as you wait for part two of this horrific incident.
Find out in part two the legal implications that infamous ambulance phone call cost Pastor Gertrude. The real person who was behind the ambulance saga and more abuse that followed after.

Pastor Gertrude and I during happier times in Southport. 

Why the blog...

I guess you may wonder why I started this blog in the first place. For the record this is not personal attack on anyone. This is me writing about my life and what I went through in the hands of Dr Walter Masocha. I love writing, so much that I think on paper. I express myself better when I write, so the purspose of this blog is more therapeutic than anything. Its more like a reflective diary. Just that its online.

I have always been a very transparent person. I deal with things better that way. Now this is how my blog is going to work. I am going to publish some emails and text messeges exchanged between me and Dr Walter Masocha. I will also publish some emails exchanged between me and his step daughter Sandra Masocha, who also abused me and used me to do her exams towards her degree, sadly I was brainwashed in believing that if I did Sandra's University work, God would bless me. I know, sigh...Well I thank God for the justice system in this country. Sandra Masocha was investigated by Forth Valley College in Scotland and found her guilty of student dishonesty. I also worked tirelessly for Dr Walter Masocha, I was working on huge projects entirely on my own. I want the readers of my blog to see the extent of the abuse in this Church. After all I did for him, his church and his step daughter Sandra, this man showed no mercy on me and my children, and cruelly destroyed my life. But I believe my God is a God of justice. And for me this is just the beginning.

This a picture of me and his step daughter Sandra during happier times at her kitchen tea party in April 2013.

He really was my "Daddy"...

How it all started

Sometimes I think its a dream. I want to wake up and have someone tell me its all a nightmare. This cant be right. This can not be reality. How did even end up here, to have my life completely destroyed by a man I so trusted. I trusted him more than I trusted myself. You may think its silly of me, but these things do happen. I put my trust, all of it, in one man. I talked to him on the phone every week, for hours. I followed him everywhere he went, well almost. I worshipped the ground he walked on, literally. He was everything to me. I adored him. I felt like a lost little girl, and this man (my hero) had found me. I met him at a time in my life when my world was upside down, I didn't really like him at first, but something in me was connected to him. A very specially connection. He called me "his baby girl", "most beloved daughter"...things like that, and it made me feel very special. Too special. I went from being a nobody to a somebody. It was almost like this man discovered me. Everyone, especially the women called him, "Daddy." I struggled a lot with that initially, well he wasn't my father. There was only one man I had ever called Daddy, and that was my biological father. Now here was this man, calling me his daughter, a little strange I thought. I have to say it happened one day, I don't know how it happened, I looked him in the eye and called him that name for the first time...Daddy. I was 29 years old, a bit too old to be getting excited about "Daddy"! But hey, this day I was so excited. Its like he does something to you. You should see the other grown women around him, some as old as 45, jumping up and down around him...Anyway this day he hugged me so tight, I hugged him back as I called, "Daddy!". In my little fairy tale book, it was a magical moment. Proper Disney type magical moment in a faraway land. I was a lost little princess who had found her special ever loving eternal Daddy. In his arms I felt like I had finally come home. I felt safe in his arms. I felt loved in his arms. He was my Daddy, (well so I thought). It was just the most beautiful story.

Now fast forward 2 years later. I am homeless, with my 3 children. Please note, a few months ago I was living in my beautiful 3 bedroom detached house I owned with my husband. I'm afraid the fairytale with Daddy didn't last very long. In fact the beautiful father daughter fairy tale turned into a nightmare, a horror story rather.This man I called Daddy within two years completely manipulated my mind, controlled me, used me and cruelly abused me. He destroyed my life, broke my marriage (turned me and my loving husband against each other), abused me so much I fled my home, my community with my young children. I sit here today and I can believe this happened. How it happened I cant really understand. I feel like I was bewitched, drugged even, something happened to me under this man I called Daddy. Its still a mystery to me.

You may be wondering who this "Daddy" is. Does he have a name? Is he a real man or is he a figment of my imagination? I wish he was all in my head. I wish he was some fictitious character I made up. But hes real and yes he does have a name. His name is Dr Walter Masocha. Believe it or not he is a former university lecturer in the UK, holding several PhDs. A very intelligent man. He is now a self styled prophet, Apostle, Archbishop and all the rest of it. A very respectable man, kind, polite and all that. He says his church called Agape is apparently one of the fastest growing Churches in the UK. In this post I have said enough about him, Dr Walter Masocha I mean. On my blog, in my own words, followed by a book, (its already finished in my head) this is just the beginning of me telling my story of the horrors and nightmares I suffered in the hands of this so called man of God. I have been through hell, and its a miracle that I am still standing...and sane after what this man and his leaders (Board Members, Envoys) put me through. For that I will fight back, as small and as insignificant I may be, I will do whatever I can do in my minute power to expose the dark secrets of this Church Agape For All Nations Ministries International. It has to be told, and I happen to be the one who will boldly say ...yes he was my "Daddy". But something in me tells me Daddies protect not abuse. So no he is no longer my " Daddy" whatever that ever meant...This is my first blog post...and I bet you are already fed up with the word "Daddy". If you think I've over inappropriately used the word Daddy in just one blog post, just go and spend 10 minutes in Dr Walter Masocha's church, and you will come and tell me I have hardly used the word. Imagine 500 grown women in one place all screaming, some crying, others hysterical and yelling "Daddy! Daddy!" Thats the kind of hysteria am talking about here. I think even the word "Daddy" is being abused in this Church. So I hope dear reader, you can bear with me as I tell a bit of my story, on a blog I decided to call, " He was my Daddy". This is a picture I had taken with him in May 2013 at his privately rented country cottage in Derby. I had gone to interview him for the Church Magazine I was the founder and editor of.